The aftermath is harder than the act itself.For three days after destroying Ravensbrook, I barely leave the apartment. I sit on the couch or lie in bed, staring at nothing, feeling the absence where his consciousness used to be like a phantom limb.Adrian takes leave from his diplomatic work to stay with me. He doesn't try to make me talk or convince me I did the right thing. He just sits beside me, a steady presence, making sure I eat and sleep and don't spiral too far into my own head.On the fourth day, Faye comes to visit."We need to talk about what you're feeling," she says without preamble, settling into the armchair across from me."I killed someone.""Yes."Her bluntness surprises me. I expected rationalization, justification, comfort. Instead, she just agrees."I destroyed a conscious being," I continue. "Ended his existence permanently. That makes me—""Complicated," Faye finishes. "Hope, you want me to tell you that what you did was purely heroic, or purely monstrous, so
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