Nadia's POVBringing Hope home was different from bringing Ethan home. With Ethan, there had been trauma and fear and complicated emotions wrapped around every moment. I loved him instantly but there was always that shadow of how he came to be. With Hope, there was just joy and nothing else.The nursery was ready and waiting. Elena had made welcome home signs and hung them all over the house. The twins had helped pick out pink blankets and stuffed animals. Ethan kept trying to touch the baby's face with his sticky toddler hands and I had to redirect him constantly."Gentle," I told him for the hundredth time. "Baby Hope is very small. We have to be gentle.""Bay bee," Ethan said and patted Hope's head softly.Life with five kids was chaotic from the first moment we walked through the door. I was nursing around the clock and Hope seemed to want to eat every two hours. My body was exhausted and sore. Dylan was juggling pack duties and helping with four other children who all needed atte
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