All Chapters of It Kills Me: A Forbidden Dark Romance: Chapter 171 - Chapter 180

“I’m sure he was. But that’s not good enough.”“I thought you weren’t the judgmental type?”“I’m not⁠—”“That’s exactly what you’re doing. My parents had been together since high school. Blissfully happy at every age. Grew old together with grace. They tried to have a family for a long time, but it didn’t happen…until I finally came along. I was their miracle baby, and they treasured me like a miracle. I won’t replace the love in my heart with anger and resentment. I won’t forfeit all my good memories because of a tragic decision he made. Don’t judge people for feeling such inescapable misery just because you’ve never felt it yourself. Just be grateful that you don’t understand. And if you’re lucky enough, you never will.”I got lost in those words, bumps forming on my arms from the wisdom of her words and the depth of her heart. Unlike me, she didn’t let the bad tarnish her soul. She continued to shine on, pure and vibrant like the sun that appeared from behind the buildings every mo

“I wouldn’t say I know it…” Just seen it indirectly, at dinners and galas, late nights with Bolton’s men.“But you’re aware of it—and unafraid of it.”I had no reason to be afraid of it. Bolton’s immoral work never affected my life. He hid his trail well, so it never came back to me. He had several different names, so our marriage license was tied to one of those aliases. Our properties had been bought under other names and identities. I wasn’t sure how he kept track of all of it. “What do most women think when you tell them?”“I don’t.”“Then how do you meet them?”“I pay them.” He grabbed his scotch and took a drink.“You sleep with prostitutes?”“Escorts. There’s a big difference.”“There is?”“An escort is an exceptionally beautiful woman who charges a fortune for her time. Her livelihood is dependent on her health—so they’re clean. It’s one of the things you’re paying for.”I wasn’t sure if I should be concerned that he openly paid for sex…or respect his honesty about it.“That b

“But you physically went down there and looked at art?” Axel asked incredulously. “You?”Theo gave him that cold look again.Axel smirked then took a drink.When Theo had said he never took other women to dinner, I hadn’t been sure if it was just a line to make me feel special, but judging by the way his brother reacted to our date, it was the complete truth.“I apologize for my husband,” Scarlett said. “He just likes to start shit.”Axel moved his hand to her thigh, way up her dress in the middle of the restaurant, and leaned into her. “Come on, baby. You know you like it.” He pressed a kiss to her neck and then another, to the point where she had to push him off.“We don’t get out much,” she said. “If you can’t tell.”“Why?” I asked.“We’ve got two babies at home,” Axel said. “They’re with the nanny tonight. We’ll have dinner, go back to a nice hotel and fuck, and then⁠—”“Axel,” she snapped. “Stop talking.”“Please,” Theo said.Axel smirked and took another drink of his scotch.The

I moved down, getting closer to the big dick that lay against his stomach, a fat vein up the middle, perfectly groomed balls at the bottom. He was a different beast of man, more animal than human.I came closer to the tip but avoided it, kissing and licking everywhere but the place he wanted me most.His breathing picked up slowly, that big chest rising and falling at a gradual speed. His dark eyes hardened with impatience.I decided to start at the bottom instead of the top. I pressed my soft lips to his balls, and the gentle contact unleashed the sexiest moan from his throat. A deep breath accompanied it, his mountain of a chest filling with the air he pulled in.I kissed him again and again then let my tongue swipe the soft skin. It started off slow before I soaked his flesh with my tongue, sucking one side entirely into my mouth as I gently rolled it over my tongue.He seemed to like it.When I had him breathing hard, I moved up and dragged my tongue up the vein of his rock-hard d

“What did you and Denise talk about?”“Work…kids.” I liked Denise, but I had been in the mood to sit alone and eat in a corner.“I told Michael we were thinking about trying.”“Yeah, she mentioned it.”He approached a stoplight and brought the car to a slow stop. “Well?”“Well, what?”“You wanna start trying?”My heart dropped into my stomach with dread. It was the same feeling of terror I felt when things heated up with Theo, the heavy realization that I was about to cross a line I could never uncross. But this was a different level, an anxiety that went from zero to sixty in a nanosecond. “Um…” I’d been on birth control a long time and continued to take it. Once I stopped taking it, I didn’t know what would happen. Would I get pregnant right away, or would it take a year?The light turned green, and he continued down the road. “That sounds like a no.” Disappointment was heavy in his voice as he grabbed the wheel with both hands.I didn’t know what to say, so I focused my gaze out th