Lahat ng Kabanata ng Devotion: Isn't What It Seems: Second Chance Romance: Kabanata 1 - Kabanata 4

Prologue For weeks I screamed every night from the pain that was ripping me apart from the inside. Then I stopped.On the outside, I looked numb. But on the inside, pain was clawing at me and there was no medicine that could help me; each heartbeat was a throbbing ache inside my chest. I got used to it; now it was an integral part of me.It’s been six weeks since I held them. Six weeks since I smelled them. Six weeks since I heard their laugh. I felt shattered, a part of me died with them that night. Sometimes I heard their voices in my head and I’d frantically look around hoping for one more glimpse, one more laugh.All around the apartment boxes sat unpacked, although you couldn’t tell whether I was moving in or moving out. Boxes of meaningless items my sister packed in hopes to encourage me to start a new life. I haven’t looked through most of them, they were either things she bought me or gave me. I didn’t want any reminders of the past, everything I loved and possessed burned

Three days after my reunion with Elise, we stood in front of the McLaren Enterprise building in downtown Edinburgh. When I asked her how Brandon was able to get me a job without an interview, she just told me Brandon connected with Colin McLaren after he performed surgery on him and saved his life. I wasn’t surprised. Brandon was a brilliant heart surgeon.I glanced up at the large glass building and back at Elise. No matter how much I objected to her coming, she insisted that she walk me to my new boss on my first day. So here we were, Monday morning, like a mother walking her daughter to school on the first day.A woman came out of the building in an expensive, crisp dress suit, and I had the distinct feeling I should turn around and leave. I wasn’t ready to go out into the world.Elise had dragged me to the hair salon, nail salon, and decided to have a spa day. I felt worse than I did before she came. She insisted getting back into the world would help but it didn’t.I looked down