Lahat ng Kabanata ng The Twice Rejected Luna: Kabanata 41 - Kabanata 50

~SilverI made it to lunch before everything exploded. Sarah had brought me breakfast in my room and I’d spent the morning pretending to rest while actually spiraling about that stupid dream and the prophet’s impossible demand. By noon I was crawling out of my skin with restless energy and decided I needed to leave the tower before I lost my mind completely.Big mistake.I was walking through the main hall toward the library when I heard Viola’s voice echoing from the throne room.“I don’t care what the prophet said. That woman is not sleeping with you Caspian!”I froze. Every instinct told me to turn around and run but my feet wouldn’t move.“Lower your voice,” Caspian said but his tone was sharp. Annoyed.“No! Everyone in this palace is whispering about it. About how you need to fuck the Healer to save the kingdom. Do you have any idea how humiliating this is for me?”“This isn’t about you Viola.”“Everything is about me!” Her voice pitched higher. “I’m supposed to be your Luna Que

~SilverI was still sitting there when Sarah came in with lunch an hour later. She took one look at my face and set the tray down.“What happened?”“The Queen Mother was here. She told me about the bond. About what happens if I complete it.”Sarah sat beside me. “And?”“And I’m terrified.” My voice cracked. “If I do this I’m bound to them forever Sarah. There’s no escape or way out. I’ll feel everything they feel and they’ll feel everything I feel and I don’t know if I can survive that.”“So don’t do it.”“But the kingdom—”“Fuck the kingdom!” Sarah grabbed my hands. “I’m sorry but I have to say it. Fuck the kingdom and fuck everyone who’s asking you to sacrifice yourself for them. You don’t owe these people anything Silver. They stood by and watched you be treated like trash. Why should you help them now?”“Because children are starving.”“That’s not your fault!”“It feels like my fault.” Tears were running down my face. “Everyone keeps looking at me like I’m the only solution. Like

~SilverI had been on bed rest for exactly six hours when they came crashing into my room like the door had personally offended them.Caspian got there first with Bastian right behind him and both of them looked absolutely wild. His hair was disheveled and almost blind eyes frantic. Like they had run the entire way from wherever they had been when Dr. Woods told them I had a medical emergency.“What happened?” Caspian demanded before the door even fully closed. “Dr. Woods said you were in the medical wing. She said there was a problem with the pregnancy but she wouldn’t tell us anything else.”I was lying in bed surrounded by pillows that Sarah had carefully arranged amd I must have looked as terrible as I felt because Bastian went pale the second he saw me.“Silver.” His voice cracked on my name. “Talk to us. Please.”I didn’t want to talk to them. I wanted to curl up in a ball and pretend none of this was happening and my baby wasn’t dying. Pretend I didn’t have two weeks to figure

~SilverThe panic attack hit and my vision went spotty and my heart was racing so fast I thought it might explode. I tried to stand up but my legs wouldn’t hold me and I ended up on the floor gasping for breath that wouldn’t come.I don’t know how long I was there. Could have been second or minutes or damn hours but then the door burst open and Sarah rushed in followed immediately by Bastian.“Silver!” Sarah dropped to her knees beside me. “What happened? What’s wrong?”I couldn’t answer and barely see through the tears and the panic.Bastian was suddenly there too kneeling in front of me and his hands were hovering like he wanted to touch me but didn’t know if he should. “Silver look at me. Focus on my voice. You’re having a panic attack. You need to breathe.”“I can’t,” I gasped out. “I can’t breathe.”“Yes you can. Watch me.” He took an exaggerated breath in and let it out slowly. “In through your nose. Out through your mouth. Match my breathing.”I tried then failed then tried ag

~SilverThey were both just standing there staring at me like I was a puzzle they couldn’t figure out how to solve and honestly it was getting ridiculous.“Okay this is already unbearable,” I said flatly. “If you two keep looking at me like I’m made of glass and might shatter at any second I’m going to lose my mind. I agreed to do this. I’m not going to break down sobbing the second you touch me so can we please just get on with it?”Bastian blinked. “We’re trying to be respectful.”“You’re being weird. Both of you.” I walked over to the bed and sat down on the edge. “Look I know this is awkward and complicated but making it more awkward by tiptoeing around isn’t helping anyone. We’ve done this before. Granted that was before you rejected me and ruined everything but the mechanics are still the same.”Even I am shocked at how cold the words sounded from my mouth but I refuse to show em. Caspian let out a surprised laugh. “Did you just reduce sex with your mates to mechanics?”“Would