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NIKOLAI'S POV "Relax," I chuckle. "You deserve to be happy. I'm giving you my blessing. You're right, Sergei. I was...prideful and I didn't get want to face her again. But that's no reason you can't be happy. So stay. We'll have a real wedding, it'll be huge."Sergei shoots me a confused look. "Where's this coming from?""You're my cousin Sergei. And...there's exceptions to every rule. Darya has done nothing but come from a family that...I wanted nothing to do with. Speaking of which, I'm going to send you to her now."Sergei breaks out in a smile. "I thought you were gonna kill us for a second!""Luna would've murdered me. And then Uncle Mikhail would've brought me back, Aunt Tatiana would've murdered me again, and then Dad would've brought me back for Mom to murder me again."I chuckle. "I'm crazy but not that crazy."In fact, they should all be storming in here soon."Anyway, get out of here, before the circus comes to town, Anastasia sent this gentleman to escort you, Miss Darya,

NIKOLAI'S POV I sigh, my blood buzzing, colors behind my lids bright and beautiful.She moves, but I hold her to me."No," I pant, "You stay right here. You're not leaving tonight."She pushes me, "Nikolai-"I stand, taking her with me, ignoring her calls. She's not leaving me tonight.I won't let her.I carry us to my bedroom, locking the door behind us. I stumble to the bed, laying her down.I flop down after her, pulling her in my arms."Nikolai, let me go."And I feel crazy all of a sudden, because how can I? How can I let her go?!"No, you stay with me tonight. Don't you dare leave."I pull the covers over our naked bodies, locking her in my embrace, tangling our limbs.She says nothing. "Nikolai, you can't do this. You can't do this and feel nothing for me. I can but you can't-""No! It's fine! Just stay tonight."I cup her face, connecting out foreheads. "Is it so hard to stay tonight?"She smiles sadly. "I'm not a good person. And I'm not a good girl. And I'm not someone yo

NIKOLAI'S POV I feel queasy. I hear her stomping after me.I clear my throat, trying to ignore her scent."Anyway, I'll admit, I...in going through some things, but this one-off, a bad decision inspired by Vodka, and if course," I pause, looking her in eyes.Those beautiful eyes. "Had nothing to do with you. Or us. It's not that big a deal, y'know? I'm a Mob boss for fucks sake, if it was a big deal if be in trouble," I laugh, spinning around.I hate that she saw that. I don't look at it. I'll probably tattoo over it later. I liked the sensation though.It burned. It hurt. Just a little. And then it bled. One drop. Two drops. Three. And I did it. I controlled it.I feel like, I don't have a lotta control right now. To say the fuckig least.Not over myself, not over anything. Which is amazing, because I run a criminal empire. I have thosands of people at my beck and call.How the hell can I feel this...all encompassing, black hole in the middle of my fucking gut helplessness?It's amu

ANASTASIA'S POV We take a ride in my helicopter to my runway. Yeah, can't ride all the way to Figi in just a helicopter.We took a small plane.He seems cool and collected, but not interested in conversation on the ride to Figi.I engage him a few times, and it goes a little something like this:"So...are you excited?"He smiles. "Yeah! It'll... it'll be beautiful.""It will."And that's it. When we finally get there, we head to the Villa I rented. I didn't think it would as smart to buy it since I probably wouldn't be staying here often.I take his hand as we stare at the Sandy Beach."It's.... breathtaking," I whisper."Yeah," I hear him say. "You are."I look up at him. "That was soooo corny-""Yeah, I heard it when it said it-"I laugh. "It was cute though," he looks away."Well let's go in!"• • •We unpack. I'm waiting for him to make a move. He quietly folds clothes instead.I walk toward him, putting my hand in his chest, taking the shirt from his hands."You know we didn't

ANASTASIA'S POV I slink toward him, laying my forehead on his."You've been going through a lot haven't you? This is more than us, isn't it? Talk to me.""I keep thinking about you. I just want you to be mine. Just mine and all mine. No one else's. You're driving me crazy."I pull away. "That's why she has to die," I raise the knife, looming over her"I have to free you from her,""Wait!"But it's too late. I yank the knife out of her body, stabbing her again and again. Sinking to my knees.I look back at him. "I had to. I love you, Giuseppe. Tell me you love me."He closes his eyes. "Of course I love you, little one. But you know you're gonna regret this later."I know. I'll see her face in my dreams. But I had to. I stand, putting my hands in either side of his face.He looks up at me softly."I just want to be your everything, Nikolai. Please tell me, now she's gone, that you'll stay?"He smiles. "Of course I'll stay."I smile shakily, cutting his ropes. He wraps me in his arms,