The safehouse bedroom smells of gun oil, antiseptic, and the faint metallic tang of Damian’s blood. The cot is too narrow for two grown men, but we make it work, his back against the wall, me half-draped across his good side, head on his uninjured shoulder. The bandage is fresh; the medic changed it twice in the last hour while the team prepped for the HiAce intercept. Outside the thin door, low voices murmur, coordinates, entry points, contingencies. Inside, it’s just us and the ticking clock.Damian’s good hand rests on the small of my back, fingers tracing idle circles over bare skin. The leather collar is still around my throat; he hasn’t told me to take it off. I haven’t asked.“You’re shaking,” he says quietly.“Adrenaline crash.”“Or guilt.”I don’t answer right away. The image of the man I shot, center mass, clean through, body crumpling like a dropped marionette, keeps replaying behind my eyelids. I’ve never killed before. Never even come close. And yet my hand didn’t hesitat
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