Every night, after the servants had gone, I would turn on my laptop and watch those videos. Scene after scene that made my stomach churn, but also piqued my curiosity in a strange way. I read those books, learning foreign terms: dominant, submissive, safeword, aftercare.I tried to imagine myself in those situations, and every single time, I wanted to vomit.I'm too innocent for this.I had never even been with another man before Alexandro. My only experience was that night at the hotel, and now he calls it monotonous. And now he wants me to do these things?Outside my room, I tried to act normal. The servants would come and go, cleaning the house, preparing meals. They didn't talk to me much, and I didn't try to start conversations either. I would just sit in the living room, or in the back garden, staring into space while my mind was filled with scenes from those videos.Alexandro was rarely home. He would leave in the morning and return late at night. Sometimes he wouldn't come hom
続きを読む