All Chapters of Fifty Shades of Desire: A Collection of Lust and Love: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

“Nova, are you alright in there?” Mother’s voice drifted through the bathroom door. “You’ve been in the shower for twenty minutes.” “I’m fine, Mom!” I called back, the lie tasting like ash in my mouth while my body was still humming with the aftershocks of a forbidden high. “Just washing my hair. I’ll be out soon.” “Okay. The food is getting cold,” she informed me. I heard her footsteps retreat. “Don’t keep me waiting too long.” I leaned my forehead against the damp tiles, my breath hitching as I looked down at my shaking fingers. They were still coated in the thick, pearly proof of my betrayal—the slick mess of a girl who had just let two dangerous men take her apart in her mind. This wasn’t just a crush. It was a sickness. A dark, sticky craving that made me feel like I was rotting from the inside out with want. I watched the cream-colored evidence of my climax swirl down the drain. I quickly rinsed my fingers, cleaned myself, and walked back into my bedroom. I put on my nightg

The house felt too big without my mother’s humming or the clatter of her keys. It was a hollow shell, filled only with the ticking of the hallway clock and the thrum of my own pulse. I stood in front of my full-length mirror, the red dress fitting me as if it had been made specifically for my body. Amy had been right about everything—the color, the cut, the way it somehow transformed me from invisible to visible with nothing but fabric and confidence. I looked like a different person, someone who belonged at parties and deserved to be seen. But they won’t be there, I reminded myself; the thought settling like disappointment in my chest. Amy said she didn’t invite them. I touched my neck, right where I’d imagined Finn’s mouth in the shower, and my skin felt electric. I was a fool. I was dressing up for a memory. I grabbed my small purse, checked my phone one more time, and headed out to catch the bus to Amy’s house. The music thumped as I approached Amy’s house; the bass reverber

I sat at my desk, staring at the spreadsheet on my screen, trying to focus, but the numbers blurred together. The office hummed with keyboards, phones, and low chatter, but one conversation kept slicing through my concentration. “Did you hear?” Sarah from accounting whispered. “Mr. Ryan is getting engaged.” My fingers froze above the keyboard. “No way! To whom?” Jennifer from HR asked. “Some woman from his social circle,” Sarah replied. “Old family friends.” “She’s so lucky,” Jennifer breathed. “Imagine having someone like Mr. Ryan—all to yourself.” The conversation grew more animated, and a sense of dread weighed heavily on my chest, making it hard to breathe. “Will you please keep your voices down and get back to work?” I said sharply, not turning around. “Some of us are trying to actually be productive.” The whispering stopped immediately. “Sorry, Miss Emma,” they mumbled, and I heard them scattering back to their desks. Ryan was getting engaged. Ryan—my boss, the owner o

“What are you looking at?” I breathed, my voice shaking. “You,” Jace said, a nasty, hungry grin spreading across his face. “Thinking about how you’d scream if I fucked you right now.” My mouth fell open, and I couldn’t move. “You wouldn’t.” “Watch me.” My body gave up instantly. My heart hammered, my skin burned, and between my legs, I was a soaking, throbbing mess. I needed to be filled. I balled my fists, trying not to crumble under his stare. He looked at me like he wanted to eat me alive. My nipples turned into hard peaks against my shirt. I wanted this—I wanted him to ruin me. He stepped in. I backed up until my spine hit the wall. He traced my lips with one finger. Sparks flew. I leaned into him, desperate for more. “You’re begging for it,” he whispered, dragging his tongue across my bottom lip. “I can see it. Your body is screaming for me.” I bit down on my lip to keep from making any sound. “You’re playing with fire, Celeste,” he growled, his hand wrapping around my th

My breath hitched, then came the sound—the sharp, metallic clink of his belt.“I’m going to show you exactly why I paid for you,” he hissed. His hand found my ass in a stinging strike that made my vision blur. “By the time the sun rises, my name will be the only thing left in your head.”“Please—” I whimpered, but the word was cut short.His fingers tangled in my hair, pulling my head back until I had to look at him. “Kneel.”When I tried to struggle, he used his strength to force me down onto my knees. I gasped, my eyes snapping open in total shock as I saw his length. He was long, thick, and massive—a monster in the flesh.“Suck.”Before I could even process the word, he forced himself into my mouth. I choked, gasping for air as my eyes rolled back. He began thrusting hard, his fingers gripping my hair so tightly it burned.“Uh,” he breathed out, his pace quickening. “So good.”The erotic, wet sounds of my mouth filled the silent room. He pushed deeper and deeper, hitting the back of