Lahat ng Kabanata ng Auden’s Blessing: Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 14

Half drunk and half conscious, I became vaguely aware of someone supporting me as I was led away. I mumbled a few words, though I couldn’t remember what I had said. After that, everything faded into complete darkness.Then, I had a dream.In the dream, a black-haired man sat with his back to me, his upper body bare as he wrapped bandages around a wound. I didn’t know where we were, but I knew I was sitting on a bed while he sat at its edge. From behind him, I kept insisting that I could help, yet he ignored me completely. I threw myself forward and hugged him from behind, rubbing gently against his broad back.He only said coldly, “Don’t move. If it starts bleeding again, you’ll be responsible.”Strangely, I didn’t feel afraid at all. Instead, I smiled happily and replied, “Alright. I’ll take responsibility. I’m willing to take responsibility for anything about you.”He still didn’t respond, continuing to bandage himself, though his movements noticeably quickened.After finishing, he

After that, I wanted to find Loki and get to the bottom of things, but I couldn’t find him for several days. And Xiya was unbelievably irritating. I went back and told her that I had no intention of getting engaged, and she actually became angry. She said Loki was wonderful and demanded to know why I refused. I told her we didn’t know each other well enough. She rolled her eyes and said that everything that was supposed to happen had already happened—how could I say we didn’t know each other well enough? At that point, I was speechless. She said I had never truly opened my heart to him, and of course I didn’t understand him well enough.Xiya seemed to be deliberately provoking me. Every day she brought Tis to the house, kissing and hugging him right in front of me. Even when she was working on the assignments given from above, she never forgot to reward Tis with a kiss after successfully mixing a bottle of solution.Tis, of course, was flattered beyond measure. He had probably never b