SELINA'S POV "A week old," she said. "Oh, honey. You're barely out. of the hospital. Why's he crying like that? What's wrong?" "Nothing's wrong. He's a little colicky, I think." The word came easily, the way a lie does when it's built on a half truth. "The nurse said it could start early. Gas. A restless night. First babies, they say it's always a restless night." "First baby?" "First." "Ah." She nodded slowly, and something in her shoulders eased. She had found the thing she knew how to do. "That's the worst of it. You think you're doing everything wrong." She stands there like she has the right to measure me." "As if she knows better how to hold him, feed him, quiet him." "She needs to leave." "Have you tried feeding him yourself?" Dana asked. The question went in like a thin blade. I felt my body answer it before my mind did, an old, hollow ache with nothing in it, a body that had been spared nothing and was giving him nothing. I had boiled bottles
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