AlanWhen I say it’s right here, I feel the words sit heavier than they should, like they don’t just leave my mouth and disappear into the space between us but instead stay close, hanging around me in a way that makes it hard to breathe normally.Natasha’s grip on my arm tightens, not a small adjustment this time but something firm and deliberate, like she is making a decision with her hands before she says anything out loud, and Matt goes completely still for a second before he shifts his weight and looks at me like he is trying to see something I can’t show him.“Define here,” he says, and his voice is steady, but there is something underneath it now that wasn’t there before, something stretched thin.I swallow because I don’t have a clean answer, not one that will make sense in a normal way, but I try anyway because not answering would be worse.“It’s not behind us anymore and it’s not in the walls the way it was before, it feels like it moved,” I say slowly, choosing each word lik
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