I woke up wearing his hoodie.Not deliberately – I’d pulled it on at 2 AM, half-asleep, reaching for it the way your hand reaches for a glass of water in the dark. Muscle memory. The fabric sliding over my head and for three seconds I was in his apartment with his arm heavy across my waist and his breathing slow against my neck and the world was the size of a bed and nothing outside it existed.Then I woke up fully. The smell hit me – coffee, his deodorant, something underneath both of those that was just him, that I’d never asked the name of because I liked not knowing, liked that it existed without a label. And the absence hit harder. The sleeve where his hand used to find mine. The hood that still held the shape of the last time he’d pulled it up over my hair. The fabric growing fainter every night because my own skin’s chemistry was slowly replacing his.I was erasing him by keeping him.I cried. The kind I thought I was done with – ugly, silent, face pressed into the sleeve, my b
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