A Naughty Christmas Affair: Fake Dating My Ex Brothers 의 모든 챕터: 챕터 111 - 챕터 114

AutumnAs if summoned by me thinking about them, my phone lights up with a series of messages. All of them have been texting me since I walked out of the rehearsal dinner, but I haven’t read any of them.I just want it to be a clean break. Dragging it out and pretending like things aren’t the way they are isn’t going to help.That thought makes tears spring to my eyes, and I have to laugh at myself. I’m acting the same way I acted after Raymond and I broke up, but that’s stupid. It’s like I told Simon, it wasn’t a real relationship, so it’s not a real break up.This was inevitable, and I knew it from the get go. This was always going to end with them leaving and me being alone again, and I managed to lose sight of that.In a way, it’s my own fault that I feel like this.Remembering that doesn’t make me feel any better, and I blink away the tears, trying to keep more of them from falling.I shouldn’t be sitting here crying over them. I should be trying to figure out what my next step

Benedict “Never mind. It doesn’t matter.”“It does matter!” I insist. “Why are you giving up on this? I just want to understand.”“I’m not!” she says. “I’m just going along with what our deal originally was. You pretended to date me for the wedding. The wedding is over. It was never real, and there’s no use pretending it was, right?”Hearing her say that turns my stomach, and I give her a hard look, cutting her off before she can say anything else.“Are we really going to keep pretending this is fake?” I ask, not even trying to hide the raw desperation in my voice.She blinks up at me, looking unsure. “Isn’t it? Hasn’t it always been?”“Maybe at the beginning,” I admit. “But now? It’s not fake for me. For any of us. Honestly, I’m not sure it ever was, if I really think about it.”I watch the emotions play out on her face. It’s hard to pinpoint what they all are, but she’s digesting what I said, taking it in. I can see that what I said has affected her, making her swallow down whateve