We did not go to the border, and we did not send backup, and across the eighteen hours that followed, that single decision became the hardest discipline either of us had practiced in years.Ethan tried to work through the morning, the way he tried to work through most difficulties, and I watched him fail at it with a specific, quiet sympathy, because I was failing at the same attempted distraction in my own way. He would settle at his desk with a governance document, read the same paragraph three times without absorbing it, and set it down again. I tried the archive, opened the new volume to review the cross-referencing system Lena had built, and found myself instead simply staring at her handwriting on the page, the specific, decisive quality of it, trying to draw some reassurance from the evidence of who she was rather than from any actual information about where she currently stood.By midmorning, we had stopped pretending to work entirely and simply sat together in the sitting roo
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