I did not reach for the envelope. My hand simply refused to move, as though touching it would make whatever was inside impossible to take back. It sat there on the table between us, unremarkable in every way that mattered except one, and yet it felt heavier than anything I had held in years. The handwriting held me in place. Rounded loops on the letters, a slight tilt to the left, the way the "B" curved back on itself before finishing the stroke. I had seen that handwriting before, pressed into the margins of an old cookbook, scrawled across the back of photographs I had not been allowed to keep.For a moment the room around me dissolved, and I was eight years old again, sitting cross legged on the kitchen floor while my mother copied out a recipe for someone she loved, humming something under her breath that I could no longer remember the tune of. The memory arrived uninvited, sharp and complete, and it left as quickly as it came, dropping me back into a room full of people who were
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