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POV: Scarlett Three weeks after the wedding, something felt different. Scarlett noticed it the way you notice a change in weather before you have evidence, not with certainty, not with a clear cause, but with the particular awareness of a body that has learned to tell you things before your mind has caught up. A tiredness that sleep didn't fix. A faint nausea in the mornings that arrived without reason and left without resolution. Certain smells that had never bothered her suddenly mattered. She found explanations for each of it separately. Stress, still working its way out of her system. The residual effects of everything her body had been through. Too much coffee. Julian's experimental approach to cooking. She found explanations because the other possibility was large, and she was not yet ready to stand in front of it. "You look pale." Camille said it the way Camille said most things, directly and without particular softness, across the breakfast table, watching Scarlett with t

POV: Scarlett The months passed the way the best ones do, not slowly, not quickly, but with a fullness that made each day feel inhabited rather than merely crossed off. Every week brought something new. A stronger kick. A visible ripple across her stomach. The moment she first felt him turn, which was so strange and so profound that she sat completely still for a full minute afterward, trying to hold the feeling in memory. The nights when Dominic fell asleep with his hand on her stomach and she lay awake in the warm dark listening to his breathing and feeling the small persistent movements beneath his palm and thought: this is it. This is the thing. This is what all of it was for. Dominic, against all expectation, got worse. Better, actually. She had to keep correcting herself. He got better in ways that were expressed as worse. He talked to the baby constantly, with no apparent self-consciousness, as though narrating his daily life to a person who hadn't arrived yet was the most

POV: Scarlett The night had gone soft around them. City light filtered through the thin curtains in a low, ambient glow. The hospital had settled into its late, hour rhythms, the corridor outside quieter, the building breathing differently at this hour. Inside the room, their son had finished feeding and was now a warm, dense, completely unconscious weight against Scarlett's chest, all four pounds of opinion thoroughly satisfied and temporarily at peace. His breathing was the most important sound in the world. She had decided this in the last twelve hours and saw no reason to revise it. Dominic had pulled his chair to the bedside and sat with his elbows on his knees and his eyes on the baby, shirt wrinkled, hair slightly unruly, still in the previous day's clothes. He looked like a man who had been through something significant and was not yet ready to look away from what remained of it. "You've been watching him for twenty minutes," Scarlett said softly. "He's sleeping." She mea

POV: Scarlett Mornings in the Hart house were no longer quiet. Scarlett had known this was coming ,had been told, had read about it, had nodded along sensibly at all the appropriate times. She had understood it intellectually. She had not, even so, been entirely prepared for the specific reality of being woken at six in the morning by a person who weighed eight pounds and communicated exclusively through urgency. Elias had opinions. He had them loudly and without apology, and he shared them through the baby monitor with the energy of someone who had been waiting all night to make this announcement and was not going to be casual about it. She groaned into the pillow. Beside her, Dominic was already sitting up. Not groggy, alert, the way she had noticed he became the moment anything related to Elias registered, as though some part of him had rewired itself in the last weeks to treat the baby monitor as a direct line. "I've got him." "You were asleep thirty seconds ago." He was al

POV: Scarlett Years passed. The kind of years Scarlett had not let herself imagine when imagining were too dangerous ordinary years, peaceful years, years with no particular shape except the shape of a life being lived. Years made of scraped knees and bedtime negotiations and birthday cakes that didn't look like the ones in the pictures and holiday mornings and the specific, loud, recurring chaos of dinners with people who loved each other too much to be quiet about it. The kind of years she had once believed were for other people. She had been wrong about a lot of things. This was the one she was most glad to have been wrong about. Elias grew into himself the way children do, in jumps and plateaus and the occasional overnight change that left her standing in his doorway trying to locate the baby she still half expected to find there. He had Dominic's steadiness and her stubbornness and some third quality that was entirely his own, impossible to attribute to either of them: a part