She has been in the world for fourteen hours when we name her.Not because we did not know the name. We have known the name, both of us, for longer than we have said it aloud to each other, the particular way of knowing something that does not require discussion because it is already true, like a decision that was made before the making of it was necessary.Lucian says it first.Not with ceremony. Not with the weight of an announcement. He says it the way he said it in the dark at midnight to the bassinet, quietly and with the specific care of a man trying a word that belongs to something real.“Patricia,” he says.I look at him.“Yes,” I say.He looks at her.She is awake for the first time in several hours, the particular alert wakefulness of a newborn who has decided the world requires inspection, her eyes moving with the unfocused but insistent attention of someone who is gathering information. She has dark hair. She has Lucian’s jaw. She has, I think, my instinct for reading a ro
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