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MAYA'S I should have been asleep.This was the thought that kept arriving and departing without accomplishing anything, the awareness that it was past midnight, that I had been awake for nearly twenty hours, that my body had done the thing bodies did under sustained stress and gone past tired into the particular wired stillness of a system that had forgotten the mechanism for rest. I lay in the dark of my bedroom with the ceiling above me and the city sounds filtering up from outside and the knowledge of him on the other side of the wall, and I did not sleep.He was in the living room.I knew this not because I had checked, I had not checked, had made a specific and deliberate point of not checking, had gone to my room after eating and closed the door with the quiet precision of a woman who was drawing a line, but because the apartment had that quality he had described this morning in a lifetime that was apparently only yesterday. The quality of a space with an occupant in it. The

MAYA’S POVMarcus was exactly what I had expected and nothing like what I had imagined.This was the particular paradox of meeting someone you had already been told about, the description had been accurate in its facts and insufficient in its texture, the way a list of ingredients told you nothing about what the dish tasted like. Kai had said: a man who had been with the Blackwood pack for twenty years, whose judgment he described the way you described a thing you had tested and not found wanting. He had not said: a man who looked at you when you met him with the specific quality of someone who had been told a great deal about you and was now doing the work of reconciling what he'd been told with what he was seeing, and who was not trying to hide that he was doing this work, and who somehow made the transparency of it feel like a form of respect rather than an intrusion.He was waiting in the lobby of my building at nine forty-five.Kai had gone down first, to check the street, he s

MAYA'S POV The door of the car opened into cold. Not the city's cold, not the particular cold of a place that had been warm once and lost the warmth to concrete and wind between buildings, this was a different category of cold entirely, the cold of a place that had never been anything else, that wore it the way the trees wore the dark, as a native condition, as the natural state of a thing that had not made compromises with comfort. I stood in it and breathed. The air was, I did not have an immediate word for it. Clean was insufficient, was the word you reached for first and then found wanting because it implied the absence of something, implied that air could be defined by what it lacked, and this was not that. This was an air that was full of itself, dense with pine and cold water and the specific mineral quality of mountains in the dark, a smell that was not a smell so much as a fact, the way mathematics was a fact, the way the particular weight of a thing in your hand was a

MAYA'S POVThe porch steps were worn in the center.I noticed this before anything else, before the height of the door, before the width of it, before the specific authority of a threshold that had been crossed by enough people over enough years to develop the particular gravity of a place that understood what it was. The steps were worn in the center the way steps were worn when generations of feet had found the same natural line, the path of least resistance, the place where the weight landed on the way in and on the way out, and the wood had accepted this and shaped itself accordingly.Someone had swept the porch recently. The boards were clean. The chairs at the far end, four of them, arranged with the unstudied ease of furniture that was actually used rather than placed, had the settled quality of things that belonged exactly where they were.Marcus held the door.Not with the performance of it, not with the specific deliberateness of a gesture that was making a point, just he

MAYA'S POVThe car had stopped, and for a moment nobody moved.I had been aware of the stopping in the way I had been aware of most things in the last several hours, at a slight remove, the information arriving and being filed without being fully processed, the specific numbness of a person whose capacity for processing had been spent some time ago and was now running on the residue, on whatever was left over after the tank had emptied.The engine went quiet.Outside the window: gravel, pale in the light of a porch lamp, and beyond it the dark shape of the house, not yet the whole of it, just the corner that the headlights had caught before Kai cut them, a wall of stone and timber rising up out of the dark with the specific patience of something that had been standing in that spot for a very long time and saw no reason to announce itself.Kai had not moved either.His hands were still on the wheel, though the wheel no longer required hands, and he was looking through the windshield