Semua Bab Her Rebirth, His Regret : Bab 11 - Bab 12

MAEVE "I need a reason," Alexander said. Not asking. Demanding, his jaw was tight and his eyes fixed on my face like the answer was already somewhere in my expression and he was simply waiting for me to stop hiding it.I looked at him standing there under the street lights and thought about all the reasons I actually had.Because in another life you held my sister the way you were supposed to hold me. Because I died on a concrete floor outside a hospital window and the last thought I had was your name. Because our child never got the chance to breathe. Because you spent three years looking at Dorothy exactly the way I spent three years waiting for you to look at me.I couldn't say any of that.I pulled in a slow breath through my nose and let it out. "I've neglected myself for a long time," I said evenly. "I've been so focused on you that I stopped paying attention to what I actually wanted. What I felt for you — I don't think it was love. Not really. I think it was an obsession. An