All Chapters of Saving Every Ounce of Guilt to Leave You: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

10 Chapters

Chapter 1

I'd just been dragged back from the brink of death, but instead of being wheeled into the ICU, I was transferred to a regular hospital room.Seeing how pale I still was, Jonathan Fowler softened his tone. "Don't worry. I'll get the best doctors to save you, but on one condition. Lottie's career is just taking off right now, and it can't be ruined by this one incident. As long as you're willing to tell everyone it was an accident, I'm willing to let you out of here."He helped me sit up and brought over a bowl of oats. "The doctor said you're too weak right now and can only handle this. Come on…"I turned my head away with my eyes lowered. "There's no need to trouble you, Mr. Fowler."Jonathan's expression instantly darkened, and his voice rose. "It's been three years, and you still can't change how you address me?"I didn't answer. In truth, before he drove me insane, I used to call him Jon.When I first arrived in this world, before the system even told me what my mission was, I

Chapter 2

When Jonathan saw the smile playing on my lips, he gritted his teeth and snarled, "Is it that hard for you to just stay by my side? And is it that hard for you to tolerate Charlotte? No matter how wild she and I get, you'll still always be my wife."I turned my head away. "I had to go through all of this torture just so you could keep me in this position of being your wife. If you think it's such a good deal, you might as well give the title to her."My words made Jonathan's expression twist. He suddenly grabbed my chin and forced me to look up at him. "What did you just say? Say it again. Do you really think that I'll let you go if you keep talking like this?"I stared straight into his eyes and enunciated, "I said, I don't care about being Mrs. Fowler."Before he could respond, an anxious female voice came from outside the room, "Mallory, the doctor told me you're awake!"Charlotte rushed in and dropped into the chair beside my bed, frowning as she looked me up and down. Tears s

Chapter 3

I was taken aback, and so were the reporters.Charlotte yanked up her sleeve, revealing a large patch of purple bruises on her arm. "I know you love Jon, and you hate that I'm always around him. But I never once thought about stealing him from you. Why do you have to push me this far? Why do you want me dead?"She sobbed so hard she could barely breathe.Jonathan quickly strode forward to hold her up, his brows drawn tight.I opened my mouth, but it felt like a hand had clamped around my throat. I couldn't make a sound. I barely had the strength to stand, let alone shove her. How could I have pushed her?But the reporters now had their cameras pointed straight at me. The sympathy in their eyes turned into suspicion."Ms. Silva, is what Charlotte said true?""Did you frame her on purpose because you were jealous?""Are you dealing with some kind of serious psychological problem?"The flashes went off in a rapid-fire crackle, every question stabbing into me like a knife. I looke

Chapter 4

After a long time, Jonathan's assistant, Bretman Reeves, came to take me back to the psychiatric hospital.The moment they locked me back in the room, my phone buzzed. I picked it up with difficulty and saw that the trending feed had exploded.There were articles titled, "Mallory Silva Goes Crazy With Jealousy, Frames Charlotte Stewart", "Jonathan Fowler's Wife is Suspected to be Mentally Unstable", and "Charlotte Stewart is Pushed Down Stairs by Mallory Silva, Unconscious and Hospitalized".The comments were all attacking me."Is this woman sick in the head? She pushed someone and still tried to play the victim?""Jonathan Fowler must be seriously cursed to have married such a lunatic.""Poor Charlotte, having such a crazy woman cling to her like this."I'd just finished reading the comments when I heard a group of unfamiliar women outside. "That's her! The crazy woman!"The door was kicked open, and seven or eight young women charged in. They all held up their phones, camera

Chapter 5

The moment the tip of the knife went in, I heard the system's cold, robotic notification.[You have died. The 50-million-dollar reward has been wired to your bank account.]In my last moment of consciousness, all I saw was Jonathan's face instantly turning ashen. His eyes widened in disbelief as he shouted, "Mallory!"He lunged forward and caught my collapsing body. Blood gushed from my chest, soaking through his coat. His hand pressed hard over the wound, trying to stop the bleeding, but it did nothing. The blood just kept seeping out between his fingers."Are you out of your mind?" he roared. For the first time, there was real fear in his voice.I looked at him, my lips moving, but no sound came out.This was nice. I finally didn't have to pretend anymore.I watched my soul float out of my body and stand above everyone.[Detaching from this world will take some time. Please be patient.]Down below, the hospital corridor descended into chaos. Those young women screamed and st

Chapter 6

Downstairs, the reporters' cameras flashed all night. When Jonathan walked out of the hospital with my corpse in his arms, everyone went crazy."Mr. Fowler, is it true that Ms. Silva is dead?""Was it suicide or murder?""Do you have anything you want to say?"Jonathan didn't answer. He just lowered his head to look at me, his voice so gentle that it was almost unreal. "Mallory, let's go home. Didn't you say the garden needed work? I'll help you fix it up tomorrow. What do you want to plant? Roses? Or the gardenias you used to love?"The reporters all stared at one another. Someone was live-streaming, and the comments went nuts."Is he talking to a dead person?""No way. Did Jonathan lose his mind or something?""This is heartbreaking… but where was he when she was alive?""Serves him right."Jonathan pushed through the crowd while holding me, Bretman doing everything he could to block the reporters.The car was already waiting at the curb. Jonathan lifted me into the backse

Chapter 7

Charlotte heard the news on the third day. She'd just been discharged from the hospital when, in reality, she hadn't fainted at all. It was all an act.Her assistant handed her the phone, looking uneasy. "Charlotte, Mallory Silva is dead."Charlotte was touching up her makeup. Her hand paused. "What did you say?""Jonathan Fowler's wife, Mallory Silva, killed herself in the hospital. The news is everywhere."Charlotte froze for two seconds. Then, she couldn't stop the corners of her lips from curling up. She quickly ducked her head and pretended to wipe away tears."Oh, my God, that's so tragic… Why did she do something so extreme?" she murmured.She lifted her head and squinted hard, working her eyes until they turned slightly red. "I need to go to Jon right away. He must be devastated."She practically ran out of the hospital.Once Charlotte got in the car, she used the rearview mirror to practice her expressions. She needed to pinch her brows a little and press her lips toge

Chapter 8

After Charlotte left, Jonathan kept vigil upstairs for three days and three nights. He didn't eat or drink throughout that time. He just sat by the bed, holding my hand, which had long gone cold.On the fourth day, Bretman pushed the bedroom door open and stopped at the doorway, looking hesitant. "Mr. Fowler."Jonathan didn't look back.Bretman tightened his grip on the envelope in his hand and took a deep breath. "Mr. Fowler, I've recently found out some things."He walked forward and set the envelope on the nightstand. "Three years ago, the photo that Mrs. Fowler saw of you and Charlotte shopping together was staged by Charlotte. She hired someone to take it and anonymously mail it to Mrs. Fowler. "And that video of you two kissing on set—she paid to have it pushed onto the trending page."Jonathan's back went rigid.Bretman's voice grew heavier. "After Mrs. Fowler was locked up in the psychiatric hospital, Charlotte kept trying every possible way to find out where she was. F

Chapter 9

The gates remained shut. Charlotte kneeled there the entire night.The next morning, the gate finally opened. Bretman was the one who came out. He stood on the steps, his face blank as he looked down at Charlotte, who was disheveled and miserable."Mr. Fowler asked me to pass on a message," he said.Charlotte lifted her head, her eyes swollen from her crying. "What did he say?""He said, 'You're not even worthy of worshiping at her feet.'"The gates swung shut again, leaving Charlotte frozen to the spot. Then, she laughed. As she laughed, tears began to fall."I'm not worthy?" She pushed herself to her feet and staggered a little. "Mallory is the one who isn't worthy. Even in death, she still has to steal you from me. Even after everything I've done, I'm getting nothing."She stumbled back the way she came, mumbling the same words over and over. "I can't accept this… I can't…"…Three days later, Jonathan made arrangements for my funeral. He personally chose a plot of land for

Chapter 10

Charlotte ended the call and sat down beside my tombstone, leaning against Jonathan's shoulder. The wind blew past, carrying a faint scent of gardenias.She closed her eyes, and tears slid down her cheeks. "I don't want to live anymore, either. You're the one who turned me from a rookie actress nobody knew into the A-lister that I am now. I decided a long time ago that I was yours, so why wouldn't you even look at me?"When the police arrived, Charlotte didn't struggle. She quietly held out her hands. The moment the cuffs closed around her wrists, she turned back for one last look.…I looked at the photo of myself on my tombstone, taking in my bright smile.Jonathan's hand was still resting on the picture. The wind lifted the hem of his coat. For a second, it felt like the first time in his life that he'd ever held me.I stood above the clouds, watching it all from a distance.The system's cold, mechanical voice rang out in my ears. [The passage has opened. Would you like to re

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