Chapter 1: The AnticipationI stood in front of my mirror, heart hammering so hard I could feel it in my throat. The laptop on my bed was still open, the video paused on a scene that made my cheeks burn. A woman on her knees, taking her man deep, eyes watering but looking up at him like he was her entire world. I had watched three of those videos tonight, pausing and rewinding every time they did something that looked especially intense. My fingers were still a little slick from touching myself afterward. I was soaked.“Aria, you can do this,” I whispered to my reflection, trying to sound confident. “Tonight is the night. No more teasing. No more waiting.”My boyfriend, Ethan, had been promising for weeks. Every time we got close, he would pull back, saying he wanted our first time to be special. But I was done waiting. At eighteen, still a virgin, it felt like something I needed to shed. I had shaved everything smooth, lotioned my skin until it glowed, and sprayed on that soft vanil
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