Herald.I didn't go to the car right away.The elevator came and went twice while I stood in the lobby of Gerald's building doing nothing that looked like anything from the outside — a man checking his phone, adjusting a cuff, the kind of stillness that passed for ordinary in a building full of people too busy to look twice at anyone not actively in their way.I wasn't checking my phone.I was thinking about the word don't.Don't you dare call me Adrian.I'd said it before I'd decided to say it, which had never happened to me before, not once, not in however many years I'd been doing this. Every word I'd ever spoken as Adrian had gone through a process first — a brief internal check, instinctive by now, fast enough that nobody watching could see it happen. Would the real one say this. Would the real one stand this way, hold this expression, choose this exact phrasing. I'd built an entire self out of that question, asked and answered a thousand times a day until it stopped feeling li
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