AlexFor the first time since I had started this shattering conversation, I abandoned the cool, controlled mood that had held me still, relaxed, at the opposite side of the room and let her in on some of the things that troubled me. I had no idea how she did it, getting me to vomit all of my life’s troubles to her. Minutes later, I left Claire’s house with her words still sitting heavy in my chest.The night air was cool against my face as I walked to the car. For a long time I just sat behind the wheel with the engine off, staring at nothing. She was right. I had been stuck. Years of carrying the same guilt, the same unfinished conversations, the same quiet hope that somehow the past could be rewritten if I just held onto it tightly enough.It was time to move on.Or at least try.The truth was more complicated than simple guilt. Yes, I carried the weight of what I had done, and what I had failed to do. But it wasn’t only that. I still wanted to see her. I wanted to stand in front
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