All Chapters of Becoming the Female Alpha: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

Every cell in me had been desperate to call Toby, and I had already begun to press the button when I hesitated. I would be disappointing all my girls if I was the first person to break.He had left first, and I could never throw away my shame just because I was missing him. This isn’t the first time he has been away; I was sure that I could brave this storm.I have already lived 24 years of my life without him; surely I could do more. It was in that same vein I decided to call Ariel; she could be a great distraction from the chaos in my head, and it has been long since we last talked.“Maddie!” She literally screamed into the receiver as she heard my voice, and I held the phone away, but my poor ears had already taken the brunt. “It is you.”“Obviously.” I rolled my eyes at the absurd question, but nevertheless, it was good to hear the bubbly personality that was Ariel. “How are you doing? And the baby?”“I am fine, maybe a little too fine because Kane has been insisting that I don’t

My father eyed the white envelope in my hands, and if I wasn’t so careful, I would have burned together with the envelope. He continued staring at me as if it would grow wings and fly, and after some minutes, he reluctantly took it, but that didn’t mean he stopped eyeing it.I think he was convinced he could find out the content of the envelope if he stared at it for a long time.“What is this?” He finally spoke up after glaring didn’t work.“Why don’t you see for yourself?” I replied with a nonchalance, barely able to contain the excitement inside me. “I am sure you will love it. I have taken special care to see that it is to your choosing. The both of you.” My words piqued my mother’s interest, and she grabbed the envelope from his hands.Alright, she didn’t exactly snatch it; she only had to tap my father’s hand, and he willingly let her have it.I watched as my mother opened the envelope and brought out the paper I had taken care to fold inside. She straightened it because, goddes

The meeting with my siblings—well, betas now—took way more time than I thought it would, and it was already past dinner time by the time we were through, but for some reason, I couldn’t stomach anything.Instead I chose to stay back in my office, trying to put some things in place, especially as a general pack meeting will be coming up.I could already feel the onset of a headache coming on, especially as I have barely been getting enough sleep, and being away from your mate could take a toll on your body.I squinted at the screen, my eyes watering from staring at it for so long. I could barely make out any words again, and I decided to call it a day. There was no need to risk my health for all this.I held the rails as I took the stairs, only one at a time, else I could risk falling and landing on my face, and I took each step slowly until I got to my room.I closed the door behind me, dragging myself to the bed with what little energy I still possessed, and I slumped on it face down

I gripped the steering wheel, my forehead pressed against its cold curve, searching for a reason—any reason—to turn back. Doubt clawed at my resolve, whispering that this might be the wrong choice, but I was past the point of logical reasoning.I had told my siblings that I was going to talk to the alpha to form an alliance, but if I was being truthful, my departure was just for my selfish reason.Kane and I had been talking once in a while, and the alliance was already a done deal; there was no need for me to go there, but I knew that if I waited any longer to see my mate, I may collapse from the bond tugging on me.I wonder if he was feeling it too.But I shook the thought from my head before I started to process it; doing that would only remind me of the hurtful words he had spewed, and I wasn’t ready to face it yet.No one seemed to be coming forth to deter me, and I started my car—the one Kane had gifted me—and I smiled as I heard the soft rev of the engine.The car rolled out of

My legs moved before my mind caught up, my heart always ready to follow him. It wasn’t until I had taken a few steps that I realized I was following him, and I stopped short.It was useless trying to follow a man who had made it blatantly clear that he didn’t want any of such, and I couldn’t afford to waste any more time on things that weren’t profitable.“Maddie?” Kane called, and I had no choice anymore. I turned to face him, but just in hopes, I turned again to look at him, and yet it was only his retreating back I saw.My chest collapsed, sinking lower and lower as I released a sigh, and I turned to face Kane properly, but the look he gave me wasn’t something I wanted to see, especially from him.“I—” He was going to say something to console me, but I shook my head, refusing to hear anything that may incite pity.“Shall we?” I gestured to the door, hoping he would take the hint, and he nodded, entering the room, and I followed behind him.My gaze fluttered around the room, never r