Lahat ng Kabanata ng His To Have And To Loathe: Kabanata 41 - Kabanata 50

Sophia’s POVNiko had spent every second of the day working on finding the so-called mole and getting rid of Moretti’s very apparent Trojan horse.I missed him. I actually missed him.He was basically a ghost at this point. Yeah, we shared the same bedroom, lived in the same house, but he had hidden himself away in his office, and he would go out at the oddest hours because he had ‘business’ to attend to.On nights when he was gone, I would find myself tossing and turning. His world had that effect on me. I knew firsthand that random attacks and shootings were just another day in the office for him.But what if he went out and just never came back?My heart pounded as I participated in my very regular act of tossing and turning across the Egyptian sheets on our bed.Our bed? I thought to myself, I was getting too used to it.Groaning, I jerked myself up from the bed. My head was about to explode.It was the middle of the night, and he wasn’t back yet. He clearly didn’t know how to use

Sophia’s POVHe wanted to share the place he loved with the person he loved.That's it.That’s what he was about to say, and I couldn't handle it. Not yet.My gaze drifted away from his deep eyes into the midnight blue of the lake.Bird calls were loud up above us, and between us, the energy stayed warm and awkward. We stood barely a foot apart, but it felt like there was a mile between us.I cleared my throat lightly as I turned around to look at him once more.“What was it like?” I asked, and his gaze met mine.“What was what like?” He folded his arms across his chest, his biceps popping up even more.I looked away instantly. This was not the time to swoon over him. We couldn't possibly be anything more than what we already were.He was not the kind of man I had dreamed of. He was the mafia boss who stormed into my life and turned it upside down without warning.He was the man who blew up a warehouse that resulted in fatalities. I mean, two people died; how many more of those did h

Sophia’s POV“Don't lie to me.” He warned me like I was somekind of petty criminal.I let out a scoff, surprised by the nerve he seemed to have developed overnight. Where was this coming from? We had been good for the most part, and yeah sure, the day at the lake ended a tad bit awkward, but in a good way.Or so I thought.I walked slowly towards him; each step had a layer of defiance towards him.“And why would I lie to you?” I looked up at him, daring him to accuse me one more time.“Did your father call you? Did you call him?” He wasn't letting it go.I raised both my hands in protest and dropped them back down, slamming them against my thigh.“You've got to be kidding me with this, Niko!” I shook my head in dismay. “You were literally there! You saw me leave his house in tears; that was the last I've heard of him.”He raised his eyebrow as he scanned my face. His entire face hardened; I couldn't tell what he was thinking.“So you haven't spoken to him over the phone? Not once? Do

Sophia’s POV“What was that?” I asked Nikolai the moment we got into the car.His grip on the steering wheel was certainly not lost on me. Whatever that was, he was properly pissed.“Hey,” I said softly as I placed my hand on his. He turned around to look at me for a second as he drove down the street. “Is everything okay?”“I can't believe that happened.” He slammed his hand into the steering wheel, and I flinched.“Would you stop being so angry? What's the big deal?”“I wanted tonight to be perfect…for you.” His eyes met mine, and I was instantly touched. He was thinking about me.“It was perfect, Niko.” I smiled at him. His jaw tightened, clearly not taking in my word. “They had to go and ruin it.”“Why do you have paparazzi following you anyway?” I was genuinely shocked at the sight before me tonight. You would think Nikolai Lev was some kind of secret pop star or something.He smirked at me. “I'm kind of a big deal in the business world.” He said proudly.I let out a scoff. “Sin

Sophia’s POVI knew before I opened my eyes that today was going to feel like a horrid hangover.I had spent the entire night crying in Niko’s arms, and he held me as I fell asleep.As my eyes fluttered open, I couldn’t help but smile. There he was, his arm still around me. It was clear that he hadn’t left my side the whole time.My fingers trailed across his arm, tracing every angle, and just taking the moment all in.He looked so peaceful with his eyes closed, and for a second, I didn’t have to think about my father or Moretti, I could just get lost in this.His eyes slowly opened, and he smiled the second his eyes met mine.“Enjoying the show, Princess?” He teased in his groggy, yet super sexy bedroom voice.I smiled faintly. “I liked it better when you were asleep.He feigned hurt by clutching his chest and scrunching his face. “Ouch…”He pulled me in closer, our faces less than an inch apart. I welcomed his warmth, the way his body felt against mine, and the safety it provided.