Dinner with Carlisle that night was an exercise in pretense. I smiled at his jokes, nodded at his plans for our future, raised my wine glass in toast to our happiness. All while the nail in my pocket pressed against my thigh, a small, sharp reminder that something wasn’t right. That nail was my reality check, my anchor to the truth I couldn’t quite grasp. “You seem distracted,” he said during dessert, his fork poised over chocolate cake neither of us had touched. The cake sat between us like a dark island, untouched and accusatory. “Wedding details,” I replied automatically. My go-to excuse, wearing thin with overuse. “Just want everything to be perfect.” Perfect was a word that tasted like ash in my mouth these days. He set down his fork with deliberate care, the tines perfectly aligned with the edge of his plate. Everything about Carlisle was precise—his movements, his speech, the way he arranged his life and now mine. Sometimes I wondered if he measured his breaths, counted his
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