The sight of him hit harder than the memory itself.For two years, my father had lived inside me as voice, scent, fragments of touch, and the soft distortions grief allows itself. But now he was there in violent, impossible clarity—broad shoulders bent in the rain, mud soaking through his trousers, his hands open in front of Marian like a man offering up the last thing he owns. Desperation had hollowed his face. Fear had stripped him bare. And all of it was for me.The chamber and the memory overlapped so completely I could not tell where one ended and the other began. Tears blurred my newly returned sight before I had even learned how to use it. My father—the man I had spent chapters of my life hating, grieving, resenting, and defending all at once—had begged for me. Whatever else he had done, whatever fear had twisted him later that night, this moment was real. He had tried to put himself between me and the blade.In the memory, Marian smiled down at him with the same cold delight s
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