All Chapters of I Was Made From What You Couldn’t Let Go: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

 “Rhydian is going to tear the whole place apart.”I ran through the halls after him, heart pounding. The diary revelation had hit like a bomb. He had read the last pages about the fake bond and lost control. Pure alpha rage took over. Now he was locking himself in the war room, roaring at anyone who came near.“Stay back,” he shouted through the heavy door. “I will kill someone if I come out right now. Just keep the pack away from me.”I pressed my hand to the wood. “Rhydian, talk to me. Do not shut everyone out. The elders are gathering. They sense something is wrong.”His voice came back rough. “Tell them I am handling border threats. Lie if you have to. I cannot face them like this. The bond was fake. Everything was fake.”I took a deep breath. “I will handle the elders. Stay in there until you calm down. I have got this.”The pack elders waited in the m

 “I cannot let him win again.”I rushed through the halls looking for Rhydian, heart racing. Lorne’s offer and his confession burned in my mind. I found the alpha in his private study, maps spread across the table. He looked up when I entered.“Rhydian, listen,” I started. “Lorne Voss is not who we thought. He is the one who—”The words stopped in my throat. Warmth flooded my chest fast. My mouth moved but the voice that came out was not mine. Deeper. Warmer. Full of love.“My alpha,” I heard myself say. “You look so strong standing there. I have missed seeing you like this. Just us. No pack. No duties.”Rhydian froze. His gray eyes widened. “Soren? That is not you talking.”I fought inside. My mind screamed the warning about Lorne but my lips kept moving. “I have always loved how your shoulders carry everything. So powerful. So mine.&rdquo

 “I cannot breathe.”The words came out weak as I collapsed against a jagged rock at the bottom of the ravine. Freezing rain mixed with snow in the high mountain forests. My lungs felt full of liquid. Every breath sounded wet and desperate. The hidden illness I had fought for months was flaring up worse than ever.I tried to stand but my legs gave out. Cold mud soaked through my clothes. “Help,” I whispered even though no one could hear me. The pack house felt worlds away.Footsteps crunched on the rocks above me. I looked up through the freezing rain. Rhydian climbed down the steep side, moving fast. His eyes locked on me the second he saw me.“Soren,” he called out. “Hold on. I am coming.”He reached the bottom and dropped to his knees beside me. His hands touched my face. They felt warm against my freezing skin.“Rhydian,” I gasped. “My lungs. They are filling

 “Everything is going blurry.”I woke up in the medical room with my vision fading fast. Colors ran together. Shapes lost their edges. The soul friction inside my head had taken another piece of me. I blinked hard but it only made things worse.Rhydian sat beside the bed. His face was the clearest thing I could see. “Soren, you are awake. The healers stabilized your lungs but there are new problems.”Mira Kane stood on the other side of the bed. Her voice sounded heavy. “The friction between the souls is worsening. Your eyesight is one of the side effects. The two essences are grinding against each other.”I tried to sit up. “How bad is it? I can barely see your faces clearly.”Rhydian took my hand. “We are here. Talk to us. What are you feeling?”I rubbed my eyes. “Like someone is rubbing sand in them. The world is turning soft at the edges. Mira, tell me straigh

 “I am watching myself disappear from the inside.”I stood in Rhydian’s study wearing Elio’s old clothes. The soft shirt felt wrong on my body but my hands kept moving. They rearranged the books on the shelf exactly how Elio liked them. My feet stepped in the same patterns Elio used to walk. I could not stop it.Rhydian walked in and stopped cold. “Soren? What are you doing in those clothes?”My mouth moved but the voice was not fully mine. “The study needed organizing, my alpha. It was getting messy. You always liked it this way.”Rhydian stepped closer. His eyes searched my face. “That is not how you talk. Those are Elio’s clothes. Take them off right now.”I watched from behind my own eyes. My hands kept straightening papers on the desk with careful movements. “The light comes in better with the desk here. Remember how you used to complain about the glare in the