I spent the day in the library with the named category notebook open and the fire going and the cat named Edmund moving between the windowsill and the reading table with the unhurried authority of something that has no stake in human reckonings and finds the whole enterprise mildly interesting at best, and what I was doing was not what I would have called reading it exactly, more like sitting alongside it the way you sit alongside something you have been building without fully realizing how much you had built until you see it all at once.I started from the beginning, the way I started everything, which was the corridor at eleven with his hand finding my arm before I knew I was falling, and I read forward through the whole accumulation of it — the piano softer, the repositioned chair, the together he tried on like a word he hadn't used in a long time, the tell me in the library, the greenhouse and the looking that was a choice, the window after Lydia's version of the fire, the named w
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