Lahat ng Kabanata ng I Hate You, Alpha... Yet I Crave You. : Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

I’m still healing, though no one needs to tell me that. My body reminds me every time I move too fast, every time I forget and reach for something with the wrong hand.But it’s not just my body.My mind keeps going back there.To him.I sit with the thought longer than I should, turning it over again and again. What got into Alpha Aiden that day? He let me go without a fight, like I meant nothing. Then suddenly, I’m everything he won’t let go of.And his words—‘He’s using you.’I squeeze my eyes shut.No.I can’t let that get to me. But the memory comes anyway.His hand around my neck. The way the air refused to come in no matter how hard I tried. The panic. The helplessness.I shiver.My fingers lift slowly, brushing the side of my neck like I can still feel it there, and before I can stop it, tears gather in my eyes, blurring everything.I wipe them away quickly with the back of my hand. I don’t even know why I’m surprised anymore. Trouble finds me every time.“Is everything okay?”

He releases my lips, and we both gasp for air. But his eyes, goddess, his eyes are everything. It feels like he is calling out to me, pulling me closer, and I am tempted to close the distance between us all over again.But too many questions race through my mind. I want to see him as the cure I need. I want to believe in whatever this is between us. But goddess, I need something real to hold on to. I need to know why he chose me.“Why did you choose me, Damon?” The question slips out before I can stop it. Only after the words leave my mouth do I realize I called him Damon without adding Alpha.“What do you mean?” he asks, his eyes searching for mine.“You have been with a lot of women. There are many who are better than me, yet… you chose me.”He narrows his eyes, perhaps not expecting that question.“Don’t let Katrina get into your head,” he says.I raise my brows. Without being told, I can tell he knows about the woman who attacked me. Or perhaps they share a history—something deeper

The warm light on my face wakes me up, and I look around, wondering how I ended up here. Then I feel a heavy hand around my waist, and just like that, the memories of what happened start to play in my head.“Oh, goddess,” I gasp as I start to panic, and I’m sure from the way I am, I’m going to wake Alpha Damon up.He slowly turns and murmurs something in his sleep, and I take my time to look at him, but I tear my gaze away and get up. I pick my dress, which has been scattered all over the floor. I tiptoe to the door, and I pause when it creaks. I look back to see if he hears, but I’m relieved when I see he is still in bed.I walk down the stairs. My bedroom is on the lower side of the penthouse. The soreness between my thighs is proof of how thoroughly I was fucked.I can’t count the number of times Alpha Damon made me come. He took me to a dizzy height and back several times on the bed, in the shower, pressed against the cold tiles. When I thought I couldn’t have any more orgasms,

“Get your shit together. It’s time.”Zahra’s voice cuts through the room before I can even think straight.She does not look at me at first, but her eyes slowly move around the room until they land on the blonde woman lying on my bed.I already know that look.Zahra wants to stay quiet. I can see her fighting with herself for a second, trying not to react to whatever mess I have gotten myself into this time.But Zahra has never been good at holding her tongue.“Seriously, Aiden?” she asks, finally turning to me. “You know what today means for all of us.”She tilts her head slightly, disappointment flashing across her face.A sharp headache pounds behind my eyes as I sit up fully.“I’ll join you soon,” I mutter, hoping she will leave before asking more questions.Of course I remember.Today we are laying my mother to rest.The thought alone makes my chest tighten painfully.I could not keep her body any longer. The elders and the medicine men have spent weeks trying to trace what reall

“Are you okay?”I see the concern in Alpha Damon’s eyes as I stumble, his arm quickly tightening around my waist before I can fall. My breath catches in my throat. I still can’t believe I slipped into Alpha Aiden’s mind and called him an asshole. It’s not what he might do that shakes me—it’s the fact that I did it at all. There are things happening inside me that I don’t understand, powers waking up without warning, and that fear sits heavy in my chest.Then I feel his stare.It's like a hand around my throat, impossible to ignore. A second later, I hear through the crowd. My heart starts pounding so hard it feels loud in my ears. My body remembers him before I even give it permission—the crushing weight of his presence, that dark pull, that same suffocating dominance that once kept me trapped beneath him.For one weak moment, my knees almost give in.But I force myself to stay still.He doesn’t get that power over me anymore. I am no longer his slave. I may be cursed enough to be tie