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All Chapters of Thirty Days Before My Alpha Lost Me Forever: Chapter 1 - Chapter 8

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Chapter 1

I didn’t want Ivander’s cold expression to be the last memory of him I carried into death.So I agreed to give Eric, the mate candidate Ivander had chosen for me, a chance.Once I did, Ivander finally stopped avoiding me. For the first time in months, he spoke to me willingly.“How are things between you and Eric? Have you decided when to hold the bonding ceremony?”“They’re going well. We’re still discussing the date.”The simple conversation nearly brought me to tears. It had been so long since Ivander had spoken to me this gently that I wanted to hold on to the moment for as long as I could.“We want pink roses everywhere,” I told him. “Even my wedding dress will be pink, with a long train.”The smile disappeared from his face, but I didn’t notice. I kept describing the bonding ceremony I had dreamed of until he finally interrupted me.“Before that day comes, remember this: I will always be your adoptive father, and you will always be family. You can come home whenever you want.”Hi

Chapter 2

Inside the bag were property deeds, bank cards, and several pieces of expensive jewelry.“After I’m gone, please give all of this to Ivander on the day of his bonding ceremony.”Eric was Ivander’s closest friend. He was also the only person I trusted to do this for me.“Have you lost your mind?” he demanded. “How are you supposed to live without any of this?”Thirty days was the healer’s most generous estimate. I might not survive even that long.“Maybe I’ll die tomorrow. Maybe it will happen tonight.” I lowered my eyes with a faint smile. “Whenever it happens, I won’t need any of this. It should go to someone who still has time to use it.”I rested my hand on the bag.“Ivander gave me a home for eight years. This is how I want to thank him.”As if accepting my fate had unlocked it, a memory suddenly returned.Six months earlier, when I still couldn’t accept Ivander’s sudden coldness, I had sat outside his door every day. I cried while waiting for him to come home, hoping he would fina

Chapter 3

I used the last of my strength to stand. By the time I was on my feet, sweat covered my forehead.When the healer first told me I had no more than thirty days to live, I had considered telling Ivander countless times.I was afraid the truth would hurt him. I was even more afraid that it wouldn’t.I couldn’t bear either possibility, so I chose silence.Ivander studied me with suspicion while my heart pounded against my ribs. Then he gave a cold laugh, disappointment settling over his face.“You really haven’t changed. You pretended to accept my decision so gracefully that I almost believed you.” His gaze moved over me. “When this little performance didn’t get you the concern you wanted, you became disappointed.”He stepped closer.“Give it up, Lina. Nothing you do will make me cancel tomorrow’s bonding ceremony.”Tears filled my eyes. His words burned like a slap, but I still managed to smile.“You’re very clever, Ivander. If only you had come back a little later.”His expression turned

Chapter 4

Everyone was confused. Why wasn’t Alpha Ivander standing beside the woman he was about to bond with?Instead, he remained standing at the entrance, seemingly anxious as he waited for someone to arrive.It wasn’t until a familiar SUV appeared that a faint light finally returned to Ivander’s eyes.But when the door opened and only Eric stepped out that small spark slowly faded away.“Eric.”“Why are you alone?”“Didn’t you go pick up Lina?”Eric was caught off guard by the sudden question.He hesitated for a long time before finally forcing out an answer.“She... she suddenly said she wasn’t feeling well.”“So she decided not to come.”The guilt and uneasiness on his face were obvious.But Ivander didn’t expose him. This answer was exactly what he had expected.Last night, Lina had smiled and wished him happiness. But this morning, she had taken so long just to change clothes.How could he not understand what she was thinking? She was trying everything she could to stop the bonding cerem

Chapter 5

He really did find me.Three days after I returned home, Ivander appeared in front of my door.“Lina, it’s me. Ivander.”“I know you’re inside. Please open the door.”His voice was completely hoarse, nothing like the confident and composed Alpha I used to know. He looked exhausted, as if all his strength had been drained away during those three days.The moment I saw him, my heart was filled with both surprise and joy.But before I could react, I reached out and grabbed Helen’s hand when she was about to open the door. I silently shook my head.I wanted to see him. I wanted to open the door and face him. But I was afraid. Afraid that once I saw him again, all the pain I had forced myself to bury would come rushing back.“How did you find me?” I asked through the door. “You’ve never even been here before.”As the Alpha of the entire wolf clan, Ivander had countless responsibilities every day. There were always endless matters waiting for him to handle.When I first learned that my guard

Chapter 6

After that rainy night, Ivander didn’t leave. He chose to stay and take care of me.From then on, he personally handled everything for me.Every morning after washing up, the first thing he did was go to the kitchen and prepare breakfast.The first time I saw him wearing an apron and awkwardly trying to flip an egg in the pan, I stood there staring for a long time.It was hard to imagine that the same man who led the entire Blood Moon Pack was now standing in the kitchen, carefully making breakfast for me.At night, he would prepare a warm bath for me in advance.Even after I went inside, he still couldn’t completely relax. He would remain outside the door, occasionally knocking softly and asking if I was awake and feeling alright.He never gave up on finding a cure for me.He continued contacting healers and mystics from all over the world, hoping that someone could save me.Some healers traveled all the way here to examine my condition.But every time, they would only stay silent, sh

Chapter 7

After Ivander carried me back, I fell into a deep sleep.I didn’t wake up until the following afternoon.When I opened my eyes, I saw Ivander sitting beside my bed. It looked like he had stayed there all night.The exhaustion on his face was impossible to hide, and dark shadows surrounded his eyes.The moment he noticed that I was awake, he carefully leaned closer.“Lina... do you know who I am?”If it had been before, I would have teased him and pretended not to remember just to see his anxious expression.But this time, I answered honestly. “Ivander.”The tension that had been holding his entire body finally disappeared.A sense of relief flashed through his eyes. But soon, he couldn’t wait any longer to tell me the one piece of good news he had found during these difficult days.“A healer contacted me.”“He has been studying this illness for fifteen years.”“Most werewolves who suffer from it eventually lose their lives, but that doesn’t mean recovery is impossible.”“He recently de

Chapter 8

The sunlight passed through the window and gently fell on my body, bringing a warm feeling.I finally saw the sun of the second day, which meant we had succeeded. My life had been extended.Thinking about that, I couldn’t help but want to cry again. But this time, my tears were not because of despair. They were tears of celebration for my new life.Ivander was quietly lying beside the bed, still holding my hand without letting go.I didn’t wake him up immediately. Instead, I simply watched him in silence.During this period of time, he had not been able to have a single proper night of sleep because of me. Now, he could finally rest.He had lost so much weight. His cheekbones were more prominent than before, the lines of his jaw were sharper, and the shirt he was wearing looked as if it had become a size too large for him.As if sensing my gaze, he slowly opened his eyes and met mine.Many emotions appeared in his beautiful eyes at once. There was surprise, happiness, and relief.Then

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