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Chapter 1

The wind was so strong that it stung my eyes. I walked in the opposite direction for a long time. At some point, I reached a bridge over a river. A year ago, right at this very spot, I stopped Simone Carson from jumping into the river.She had been crying about the man she loved finding someone else. Like a fool, I comforted her and spent an hour in the cold by the river.When Zachary Guzman got my call, he drove over. He was usually very reserved with women, but he had picked up Simone without a second thought. I had been stupid and only felt worried. I never noticed how practiced that movement had been, like he had done it countless times. Besides that, I also failed to notice the complicated looks passing between them. My stomach churned. I leaned against the railing and bent over. Cold sweat broke out on my forehead. A kind-hearted passerby came over and asked after me. I waved the concern off and said that I was fine. The phone in my pocket suddenly started

Chapter 2

"I regret it. I really feel bad for Helena. We shouldn’t be doing this to her."Zachary sounded worked up. "But you don’t feel bad for me? I’m in pain, too, Simone. You didn’t tell anyone we got married because you were afraid that Helena would be sad. I went along with you then."But now, we’re back together again, and you want to push me away because of her? What am I to you, Simone?"Simone seemed to waver. "Helena’s been in love with you for a decade, after all. She’s my best friend. I wouldn’t be able to bear the look on her face when she finds out the truth.""You’re abandoning me again. You’ve already done it once!" Zachary’s voice rose suddenly. "I don’t care about Helena. All I know is that you’re the one I love! "You’re back in contact with your lover again, aren’t you, Simone? That’s why you’re in such a rush to get rid of me, am I right?""No, that’s not true!""Then stop pushing me away! If you keep doing this, I’ll go mad!"Their voices cut off. I surreptitious

Chapter 3

"Having a medical abortion has a huge impact on the body. It may also affect your fertility. You’re still young. Why don’t you take some time to think this over?"I ducked my head. "I’ve thought it all through, doctor."The doctor said nothing more after this. She ordered some tests for me, and I went to have them done. As I queued up for the tests, my thoughts drifted to our 100-day anniversary. After we slept together, I buried my head in his neck. "Why didn’t you have a baby with your ex-wife, Zachary?"A shadow passed over Zachary’s eyes for a second. "She didn’t like kids."I tugged Zachary’s hand and put it on my lower abdomen. "Well, I want a child of our own. It would be best if it looked like you, then I’ll be able to see what you looked like as a kid."Zachary smiled and rubbed my palm but did not say anything. I finally understood the meaning behind his gesture.All along, Zachary had only ever wanted to have a child with Simone. I wanted my baby to be so

Chapter 4

When I got to the police station, I found Zachary comforting Simone. He had a few scratches on his face, and his black coat was covered in dirt. When he saw me, panic flashed across his features. A female police officer came over and spoke to me professionally. "Ms. Carson was being harassed by some hooligans on the street. There was an altercation when Mr. Guzman stepped in. "The hooligan in the lead was knocked unconscious and has been sent to the hospital. He is awake now and is pressing charges."I looked toward the bedraggled-looking Zachary and felt my heart twist. Three months ago, someone had been stalking and harassing me. After finding out about it, Zachary did not show any reaction on his face. He only said, "Make sure to make a police report if it happens again."It seemed that Zachary would abandon all rationality to protect someone in that position, given that someone was Simone. After paying the fine, we left. I had only bent over to retie my shoelaces fo

Chapter 5

(3rd POV)Zachary’s fingers were trembling as he thought about how he could explain. He finally managed to find the words. After typing out a few hundred words, he hit send. The message failed to send. Zachary’s mind went empty for a long moment. Then, he clicked onto Helena’s Facebook page. She was someone who loved recording things for posterity. However, Zachary found that he could not access her account at all. Finally, Zachary realized that Helena had blocked him. In the year they had been together, Helena had never done that despite their fights. Zachary could not describe what he was currently feeling. Was he sad? Not really. He even felt a little bit like he had been freed. He and Simone would not need to hide anymore. He also did not have to face that kind of pressure anymore. From then on, it would be just him and Simone. They could go back to how things were in the past. As Zachary thought about all this, he started to smile. When Simone found

Chapter 6

As Simone spoke, tears started to fall. "You’re in love with her, aren’t you, Zachary? It’s only because of me that you’re not looking for her, right? If that’s the case, I can leave. I won’t bother the both of you anymore."In his panic, Zachary pulled Simone into his embrace. "No, that’s not true. You’re the only one I love."It took a long time for him to talk Simone down. As the sky started to lighten, Simone finally went back to sleep, but there were still tears in her eyes. Zachary quietly got out of bed and poured himself a glass of ice water. After spending all night awake, his brain felt like a tightly strung wire.He rubbed his temples and sat on the couch. "What is it, Zachary? You look like you’re in pain."Zachary suddenly heard Helena’s voice. He whipped his head around and saw Helena in pajamas and looking at him worriedly. "Are you tired from work? Let me give you a massage."She got up and walked behind Zachary. Her cool fingers rubbed at his temples

Chapter 7

(1st POV)Fall in Malbonin was somewhat dry. Both sides of the Yalec River were lined with acacia trees. Being back here, I had an unusual sense of peace. I thought that I would feel sad and get lost in the pain of losing someone who loved me. But that did not happen at all. The only time I felt an inexplicable pang of sorrow was the moment I saw the remains of the embryo.I lived peacefully the rest of the time. I had blocked all of Zachary’s and Simone’s social media accounts and cut them out of my life completely. Occasionally, when I talked with friends back home, they would talk about what happened. I pieced only things together through their words and some snippets from the internet. Zachary and Simone had been planning a wedding ceremony, and the invitations had all been sent out. But then, for some reason, they broke up suddenly, and it was all a mess. Simone had been hit very hard by this and tried to seek him out at his company to get back together with

Chapter 8

A breeze blew, scattering the fallen leaves on the ground. I took a step back, crackling the dry leaves underfoot. "What are you doing here?""I’m here looking for you."Zachary stepped forward, closing the distance between us. His red-rimmed eyes never moved from my person."Are you doing well? I’ve been awful. I miss you so much."A frown marred my face. He kept speaking. "I’ve broken up with Simone. Look." Worried that I would not believe him, he took a divorce agreement from his pocket. "I’ve finally gotten my feelings straight, and it’s all thanks to the text you scheduled in advance. Will you come home with me and start over?"His last sentence was said very tentatively and had a hint of pleading in it. I was silent. Zachary quickly added, "But it’s fine if you don’t! I can stay here. Let’s never be apart again, Helena, alright?"He reached out, wanting to hug me, but the moment before he would touch me, Isaac stopped him."Get away from my girlfriend."Is

Chapter 9

"After I saw your text, I found this in the lamp. I’ve been wearing it ever since."I looked down and stared at the ring. Back then, Zachary had not wanted to make our relationship public. I agreed, but I was very disappointed. There was no trace of me in his social media. That was why I wanted to use something else to signify that he was mine. But I did not need that anymore. "So what? This ring means nothing anymore," I said calmly."It does mean something!"Zachary frantically stepped forward, moving to touch me. But then, he put his hand down. "You gave me this ring. You must have been looking forward to me wearing it so much when you bought it. I’m sorry. I ruined everything. I really regret it. Don’t leave me, okay, Helena? Give me a chance to make things up."He started crying. In my memory, I had only ever seen him cry twice. Both times, this had occurred in front of Simone. I never thought that he would reveal such a sad and despairing side of himself to me.

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