Please Tell Mom This Is Not Her Fault の小説・ストーリー

“Why do I always fuck things up?” “Duncan, you didn’t do this. You didn’t make Coral run. I know you have talked with Raina about this.” My mom started to continue, but I couldn’t let her take this off of me. I turned and looked at my mom, the pain clear across my face and throughout my entire being. “It is my fault. Mom, I told her she was a mistake. Fuck, that isn’t what I meant, but that is what I said. And she ran.” I paused, collapsing in my chair. “It is my fault. It is all my fault. I should have controlled myself, but I couldn’t.” I leaned forward, placing my elbows on my knees. “I should have done something, anything else.”

“ You can’t blame me for this , I did what I thought was the best first for the two of us. I know that you might not see that now but with time I know that you are going to understand that . Understand? Understand what mom , tell me. What exactly am I going to understand? I don’t get it with you , do not try to pin this on me , none of this was ever my fault , none of this is my fault , I was comfortable with our simple life that we were living , I never asked for this , I never asked for this luxury , if this was the price that I have to pay .

It was at that moment that I finally returned Mom’s embrace and broke down crying. “…Mom… I’m such a useless boyfriend. I should’ve gotten there sooner… I should have… this is my fault…” “Diana… she should never have experienced something like this. Mom… that bastard deserves to die…” Mom looked at me with tears still falling from her eyes. She nodded slowly before hugging me again. “It’s not your fault. That madman is the one to blame, and he deserves severe punishment.” I shook my head. “No. I won’t let him off that easily.”

It was never her fault. "If I hadn't handled her funeral, she would've started decomposing by the time you came back! Mom has been very good to me all these years, so no matter how dissatisfied I am with you, I definitely wouldn't extend that grudge to her. That's why I immediately settled her funeral affairs instead of waiting for you! "If you suspect that I did something dirty, you're more than welcome to report me to the police. And if they find out that I really did do something, I won't even blink if they decide to execute me! You can go right ahead!"

"He's been blaming himself, thinking that if he'd just forbidden you from taking that trip, none of this would have happened." "It's not his fault," I said firmly. "It was just bad luck. Wrong place, wrong time." "Well, you're safe now, and that's all that matters." She smiled at me, a real genuine smile that made her look younger. "Come on, let's get you home. Everyone is going to be so relieved to see you." "Actually, Mom, I need to tell you something first," I started, my heart pounding because I knew what was about to happen.

"It's like I'm loosing her all over again, mom. I thought we were good. We were fine now, she's fine. I don't...I don't understand. I don't understand anything at all, why? Why??" "Darling," "Why mom? Why?" I looked up at her. Finally looked up at her. Her brown eyes staring back at me, pity. Concern. "Eliot, it's okay." She said, soft. Consoling. "It's alright. Sometimes...we can do all the right things, do everything right. But then things just don't work out. It's not our fault. We shouldn't beat ourselves over it." No. I didn't believe that. I didn't.

"What if my dad comes back to confess to you? Will you forgive him?" Her mom said in a deep voice, and shook her head, "I don't know, I still don't understand, why did your father change? Is it because I didn't do well enough?" "Mom, you don't have to look for problems from yourself. It's not your fault, it's Dad's fault." Her mom looked at her with a solemn expression, "If it were you, would you forgive this mistake made by your chubby?"

“I like to think that a part of him believed he’d change for me, and for you. But I was never enough to make him change.” “It’s not your fault,” I say quickly, shaking my head. “And it’s not your fault either. Just like Jayden’s mother, you weren’t to know what she was about. I guess neither was he at the time.” “It’s just… it’s been a lot. And sometimes, I’m not sure I’m handling it all that well.” Mom reaches across the table, her hand covering mine. “You should be proud of where you are now. You’re an amazing mother, and you’ve stayed level-headed through all the chaos.”

“Wh-what are you saying? Mom, please don’t do this.” I approached her again, but she pushed me with all her might. “Don’t touch me, you monster. I raised you and protected you, but all you brought into my life was misery and shame. Can’t you see? All of this is your fault.” “No…” I shook my head in disbelief. “Mom, why are you saying this?” “You’re the reason why all of this is happening. Now, leave me alone before they find us because of you. Leave me alone, you freak!”

" It's not my fault that her husband was abusive, or she can't become a mother.” " Nothing is my fault , then how can you think I will bear the punishment ? If she thinks Viren still loves her then she never had planned to separate me and Viren, but she knew inside her heart that Viren is happy with me, and she has no chance.” Saying this she started breathing heavily.