Mom, They Won't Mock You Anymore
My mom is terrified of being laughed at by others the most.
Whenever the holidays are here, she will keep repeating one sentence to me—"Don't go around embarrassing me."
When my relatives gather around and chat with each other, I accidentally knock a fruit platter over. Mom drags me over and slaps me on the spot.
At the holiday feast, I grab extra pieces of steak for myself. Mom responds by kicking my chair over.
When it's time for the holiday gifts to be distributed, my aunt, Gabriella Hall, has miscalculated the number of children present among the family. So, she has prepared one less gift for the occasion.
Mom doesn't hesitate to kick me out of the apartment, leaving me shivering in the cold corridor in just my indoor clothes.
The icy winds chill me to the bone. I keep slamming my palms on the front door while screaming and crying my apologies at Mom, and yet she remains unmoved and silent.
Instead, she turns to face Aunt Gabriella with an apologetic smile on her face.
"I'm really sorry. I didn't raise my daughter well. It's only fair that you ridicule me."
What Mom doesn't know is that I get triggered whenever I hear the word "ridicule" thanks to her so-called parenting lessons. Whenever I hear that word, I want nothing more than to hurt myself uncontrollably.
So when I hear the word "ridicule" coming out of Mom's mouth through the front door, I turn on my heel quietly and begin making my way toward the bridge next to the neighborhood that's plunged into darkness.
The moment I jump from the bridge, the only thought I have is, "Mom, no one will ridicule you because of me this time."