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he said, and it wasn't a question.
"I'm trying to be good at this," I said.
"You don't have to be good at this," Eli said. "You have to be present. You have to let yourself want things without calculating whether you're doing it right."
"I don't know how to do that," I said.
"Yes, you do," Eli said. "You've been learning how for months. You're just reverting to control because vulnerability got intense."
He was right. Again. He was always right about this.