Chapter: The Math of ItIt arrived while I was doing something completely unrelated.That was the thing about the realizations that actually mattered — they didn't announce themselves. They didn't wait for the right moment or the appropriate atmosphere. They arrived sideways, while you were making toast or running a drill or sitting in AP Lit pretending to annotate Gatsby, and by the time you registered what had happened the understanding was already fully formed and irreversible.I was in the library annex on Saturday afternoon, waiting for Mom to come back from the phone call she'd made to Ms. Okafor, reading through the new Elowen pages with a pencil and the particular focused attention of someone who was actually thinking about something else entirely.Family with history in this town going back generations. His family had expectations. Old ones. The kind that had been there before he was born.I turned a page without reading it.He was always going to stay. He was made of this place.I put the pencil do
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Chapter: In PiecesMom talked on Saturday morning.Not the way she'd talked on the phone — that had been a call, contained, the distance of a thousand miles giving both of us somewhere to retreat to when the weight of it got large. This was the bed and breakfast dining room at eight in the morning with coffee that the Ostranders made strong and good and a plate of toast between us that neither of us was eating, and my mother on the other side of the small table looking like someone who had decided last night, writing in her notebook in the small desk chair, that today was the day she was going to stop managing the pieces and just hand them over.She started with the easy part.She grew up forty minutes outside of Evergreen, which I already knew from the phone call. One-stoplight town, grain elevator, parents who were teachers, summers that she had loved with the specific totality that children loved things before they understood that loving something meant you could also lose it. She'd spent every summe
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Chapter: The Ghost came backMom called on a Thursday to say she was coming Friday.Not asked. Said. With the specific energy of someone who had made a decision and was announcing it rather than proposing it, the way you announced things when you knew that if you left space for negotiation you might talk yourself back out of them."I booked a flight," she said. "I land at two. Can you pick me up or should I get a car?"I sat down on the kitchen stool. "You're coming here.""I'm coming there.""To Evergreen.""To Evergreen," she confirmed. A pause. "I read the letter, Avery. Three times. And then I booked the flight." Another pause, shorter. "I should have done this a while ago."I picked her up at the regional airport forty minutes outside town, a small building with two gates and a coffee kiosk run by a woman named Patrice who apparently knew everyone who came through and greeted my mother by looking at her for a long moment and saying, "Claire Merritt. I thought that was you on the manifest."My mother went ver
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Chapter: The ApologyKnox was waiting outside AP Lit on Monday morning.Not casual-waiting, not the leaning-against-the-locker version with the easy grin. Actually waiting — standing in the middle of the hallway traffic with his hands in his jacket pockets and his eyes on the corridor entrance, watching for me specifically, which I knew because the second I came through the door he moved. Directly. No detour.I stopped walking.He stopped in front of me.The hallway moved around us — lockers, backpacks, someone's skateboard getting confiscated by a teacher who had clearly confiscated this particular skateboard before and had feelings about it. All of it proceeding as normal while Knox Callahan stood in front of me with an expression I hadn't seen from him before — open in a way that cost something, the captain version entirely absent."I was a jerk," he said.Not preamble. Not I've been thinking or I wanted to say. Just the fact, placed in front of me immediately like he'd been holding it since Saturday a
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Chapter: The pressure SeasonThe scouts arrived on a Tuesday and the entire rink changed temperature.Not literally. The ice stayed at whatever ice stayed at. But the atmosphere — the particular quality of the air during practice, the way the team moved, the way my dad moved — shifted with the immediate, unmistakable energy of people being watched by someone whose opinion had consequences.There were two of them. They sat in the upper bleachers with clipboards and the studied neutrality of people whose job required them to be unreadable, which only made everyone read them harder. Division One programs, Dad had mentioned that morning over coffee, with the careful neutrality of a coach who knew how to want something for a player without letting the wanting contaminate the coaching. Two programs. Both with full scholarship availability. Both with Knox's name already on a list somewhere.I sat in my regular spot in the lower bleachers and felt the difference from the first drill.Knox was faster. Sharper. Every edge
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Chapter: JUST ME AND THE STARSI drove to the lake alone on a Wednesday night and told nobody.Not a secret exactly. Dad knew I took drives sometimes when I needed to think, had stopped asking where I was going about two weeks in when it became clear I was always going somewhere reasonable and always coming back. Knox knew I liked the lake. Finn knew I processed things by moving. None of them needed to be in the loop on every instance of those facts.Tonight was mine. Just mine. I had been understanding, slowly and with some resistance, that there were things you could only do when there was nobody beside you to do them with — not because the people beside you made things worse, but because some versions of yourself only showed up in solitude, in the quiet that came from being accountable to no one for an hour or two.I parked at the gravel track between the two pines, cut the engine, and sat for a moment in the cooling silence.Then I got out, pulled my jacket tighter, and walked down to the bank.The lake was wha
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Chapter: Chapter 74Mandy finished up her day and spent the evening waiting for Carl to finish. She gave up and headed back to her apartment after nine. A salad dinner and then a long swim left her bored and cranky. She’d eaten enough crap food and her body was starting to tell her. She threw a movie in the DVD player and sat on the couch, waiting for Carl to knock on her door. She dozed off, and around two in the morning she finally texted him, only to get a short reply that they would talk soon. Images of him and Annette wouldn’t leave her head, or her dreams. Why in the world hadn’t he just brought the pile of work home with him? Unless he was out with her. Something flared up inside of Mandy. She wasn’t sure what it was, but it made her irritable and possessive.Morning took forever to come and was there too soon. “Why are men such a pain in the ass?” She sat up on the couch and stretched, aching everywhere. She dressed in a simple green dress and flats, pulled her hair into a messy bun and put on
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Chapter: Chapter 73I’m getting over it.” She shrugged. “I need to run a few things by you.”“Go for it.” Dark circles sat under his beautiful blue eyes, much like his brother Mark seemed to be sporting every time they saw him. “Mark called and will be coming up on Saturday with all of the paperwork from the estate sale.”“Good.”“He wants to know if he can stay at your place. He’s having a few financial difficulties.”“No.” Carl kept his steely gaze on her. “Alright. He can stay with me.” She crossed her arms over her chest. “Next topic is your notes for the meeting on Tuesday.”“Wait. What the fuck? My brother’s not staying with you. That’s not happening.” He sat up in his chair and leaned toward her. The aggressive look on his face would have been sexy if he didn’t mean it in a negative manner.“Then he’s staying with you. There’s plenty of room at your house. You’re being an ass about this.” She moved to the edge of her chair, ready to challenge him. Their ‘moving to the next level’ would definitel
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Chapter: Chapter 72Always guy troubles.” She fixed her coffee and let out a long sigh. “Let’s not talk about me. Let’s talk about you.”“Okay. Well, I wanted to see you to let you know that I’m filing for divorce. I’ll be getting a place in the city, and it has two bedrooms, so if you need a place to stay there is always room for you with me.” He smiled warmly. Mandy glanced up and really studied him, finding his complexion clearer and healthier than she had seen it in years. His time with her mother had been good for a long time, but the last five or six years, he’d starting looking worse and worse. “I’m glad. I’m sorry things aren’t working between you and mom, but to be honest, you look really good, Dad.”“I feel good.” He lifted his arms in the air and stretched. “I’m sick of being beaten down and kicked around. I’m going to spend the rest of my days with someone who really cherishes me, or alone. I’m happy going at life by myself.” “Me too, actually.” She admitted. “You’re too young to be cynic
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Chapter: Chapter 71THEY FLEW HOME IN SILENCE, the hot love-making session having been put on hold. Their relationship was a freakin’ yo-yo. It did feel like they were teenagers again. She didn’t have much to say as they sat in the back of the car, either, though Carl reached out and took her hand about halfway home. She didn’t push him away, but she didn’t give much thought to making things right either. His phone buzzed and accidentally connected to the car stereo as the message from his caller was recorded. “This is Carl Reid. I’m away from my phone. Leave your name and a short message and I’ll return the call when I can.”A loud beep sounded. “Carl,” the voice was sexy and a little too familiar. “It’s Annette. I need you to call me when you get this, baby. It’s really important okay? No ignoring me to make me jealous or sad. I need to talk with you. Its business-related and I know how much you love business.”The message ended and Mandy’s stomach tightened. He was worried about her and Mark? That
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Chapter: Chapter 70He’s an idiot, but most men are. He’s just not used to having someone he plans on keeping for a while. Tell him that it hurts you, and once you’ve been crystal clear about it, you can get defensive and hurt if he does it again.” He smiled. “You’re beautiful, and he’s a lucky man. Period.”“Thanks.” She wiped at her tears, feeling childish. “It’s fine. I need to just be clear with him about it. I’m letting my past haunt my future.” He wrapped an arm around her shoulders. “We all do. It’s going to be fine.”“Thanks, Mark.”“Me, on the other hand... I’m thinking about filing for divorce. I’m so tired of not being loved.” He squeezed her once and let her go. “I keep thinking it’s going to get better, but it just doesn’t. She wasn’t cold or borderline cruel when we met. I don’t know what the fuck changed inside of her, but it’s like night and day. I’m almost at my breaking point.”It was her turn to comfort him. She reached out and rubbed his back as he leaned over the rail in front of th
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Chapter: Chapter 69The need in his voice seared her, and there wasn’t anything that she wouldn’t have done for him. “Are you serious?” he whispered, and slipped his fingers into her hair. She smiled up at him and stroked his cock a few times, coaxing it to grow and harden for her. “Yeah, as a heart attack.”Mandy leaned forward, and brushed the side of her face along his erection as he growled low in his chest. “Besides... I owe you a good chewing.” He chuckled and leaned back against the wall of cans, tugging her a little closer as she took him in her mouth. The musky taste of his lust rolled over her tongue, and she lost herself in needing him. Sucking and licking, pulling, and stroking his thickness became her desire, and she did it with fervor. His hips bucked a few minutes into the sex, and he closed his eyes, lifting his head up and groaning. “Fuck, I’m gonna come. Move back.”“No. I wanna taste you.” She moved back up and picked up her pace, working him until his entire body stiffened and his
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