My Crave, My Ruin
⚠️WARNING⚠️
Have extra pairs of underwear and get ready to clutch your thighs, this book contains mature themes and explicit sexual content intended for viewers rated 18+. Further triggers are listed below:
Violence
Toxic Family
Cheating
BDSM
Emotional manipulation
Abandonment issues
Kidnapping.
Reader-discretion-advised , if this is your cup of tea get ready to get wet. ( I’m referring to your eyes.)
Four years of lies against one night that changed everything. Sienna Blake hoped her boyfriend of four years would propose to her, but instead she catches him in bed with her cousin. Humiliated and betrayed, she gave him a chance to make it right… only to discover his true colors.Alone and vulnerable in New York, she’s caught by a charming stranger in her most intimate moment. What begins as embarrassment explodes into a night of reckless desire, heat, and forbidden pleasure,one she’ll never forget.She bids farewell hoping to meet or hear from him again, but she is met with nothing but silence. Feeling stupid , she does what she knows best and gets a slap in the face with reality. Some mistakes don’t stay in the past, they follow you around, taunt you, and claim you in ways you never imagined.Embark on this journey to uncover deep and dark secrets. Can you keep a secret ?
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Chapter: Sienna’s POVHe walked through the front doors an hour later, smelling faintly of tire smoke, gasoline, and cold night air. His black t-shirt was damp with sweat, clinging to his broad chest, and his dark hair was messy from the helmet. I was waiting near the bottom of the staircase, adjusting the sleeves of a soft cardigan. "Thank you," I said softly, gesturing toward the armful of boutique boxes the staff had brought up to my room while he was out. "For having the clothes delivered. They actually fit really well." "Good," Adrian said, unzipping his leather jacket and pulling it off in one fluid motion. He tossed his keys onto the marble console table, his eyes instantly locking onto mine with that heavy,and direct intensity. "We need to make our engagement public. Officially." I blinked, my grip tightening on my cardigan. "What? Why now?" "Because if the press and the board know, my mother won't be able to touch you so easily," he explained, stepping deeper into the foyer. "She thrives on
Last Updated: 2026-09-29
Chapter: Adrian's POVThe roar of the engine vibrated up through my hands and into my arms, the only physical sensation that always anchored me back to reality. Beside me at the right, Julian revved his throttle, his grin visible even through the dark visor of his helmet. “ It's been a while bro, let's do tge usual ridge valley!” He yelled over the noise of the exhaust. "Just like when we did when teenagers…Loser pays for drinks!” I didn't answer. I just gave a single, sharp nod as the light flashed green, kicking my leg back and opening the throttle wide. The Ducati surged forward, tearing down the empty stretch of highway with a deafening roar. The wind lashed against my jacket, but inside my chest, the noise was different and very chaotic. My whole life, the world had come to me through a strange, muffled filter. Interoceptive dysfunction….that was the clean, clinical word the doctors had used when I was a child to explain why I couldn't feel my own heartbeat racing when I was anxious, or why I c
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Chapter: Sienna’s POVWe walked out of the precinct into the blinding afternoon sun. I immediately turned to Nina, reaching out to catch her arm. "Nina wait please, can we just talk about what happened back there?" Nina pulled her arm away before my fingers could touch her coat. She didn't look at me, her eyes were cold and fixedstraight ahead. "Save it Sienna," she said, her voice completely flat. "I'm calling my own cab." "Nina—" "I said save it," she repeated, stepping toward the curb as a yellow taxi pulled up. She got in, slammed the door shut and drove off without looking back once. My heart sank with a heavy sick feeling settling in my stomach. Adrian stepped up beside me, his tall frame blocking out the sun as he watched the cab disappear down the street. "What happened between you two?" he asked, his deep voice dangerously quiet. I swallowed down the lump in my throat and straightened my posture, hiding the sting of my best friend's departure. "Nothing. Pleaze mind your own business." Adri
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Chapter: Sienna’s POV"You really didn't have to do that Nina," I muttered, carrying a armful of designer bags as we walked out into the main concourse of the mall. "We could have just avoided her altogether." "No way in hell," Nina snapped, her eyes still flashing with adrenaline. "I am not letting that bitch talk to you like you're beneath her. You need to stop being a doormat Sienna.” "You don't understand!" I hissed, pulling her slightly off to the side near a fountain. "His mother loves Gwen. She completely despises me, mind you she literally offered me a check yesterday just to leave Adrian. Once she finds out what happened back there, she is going to hate me even more!" Nina rolled her eyes, throwing her hands up. "You are overthinking this whole thing, who cares what that old dragon thinks? You still shouldn't let people walk all over you." "Nina, you really don't get it," I sighed, rubbing my temples. "My entire life is hanging by a thread right now. I don't have the luxury of picking fights w
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Chapter: Sienna’s POV"That's her," I whispered, leaning in closer to Nina. "That's the girl his mother brought for him." Nina instantly shifted her expression, contorting her face as if she had just stepped in something completely disgusting. She squinched her nose, looking Gwen up and down through the glass window. "Her? Seriously? She’s not even that pretty." "Let's just go to a different store," I suggested, tugging on Nina's arm. "We can always come back here later when the air is clean." "Absolutely not," Nina declared, planting her feet firmly on the marble floor. "Sienna, the pieces in there are gorgeous and they sell like mad. If we want the good stuff, we have to go in right now. I am not letting her ruin our shopping spree." Before I could object, Nina grabbed my wrist and marched us straight through the boutique's heavy glass doors. The moment we stepped inside, the atmosphere shifted. The sharp, shrill sound of Gwen's voice cut off abruptly as her eyes landed on me. The store fell in
Last Updated: 2026-09-12
Chapter: Sienna’s POVThe next morning, I made it down just in time to catch Adrian before he headed out the front door. He looked infuriatingly handsome. He was wearing a dark, tailored charcoal suit that fit his broad shoulders like it had been molded onto him, his dark hair freshly styled, and the faint, expensive scent of dark coffee and cedarwood trailing behind him. As I reached the bottom step, Adrian paused, reaching into his inner jacket pocket. He pulled out a sleek, matte-black card and held it out to me. "Here, for your shopping… the driver will take you wherever you need to go," Adrian said smoothly. "Go to the garage and choose whichever car you want to use “ I took the card, staring down at it in mild shock. Just like that, I was engaged to one of the most powerful men in the city, holding an uncapped black card, about to live the kind of ultra-wealthy, effortless lifestyle people only read about in magazines. And I hadn't even had to climb a corporate ladder for it. He grabbed his
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Chapter: Iris's POVI stared down at the small, empty vial resting in my palm, my fingers tightening around the cold glass until my knuckles turned white.He probably thought I was some kind of genius healer, I breathed in and out letting out a silent bitter breath.The truth was, I knew this potion so well because I had spent three agonizing years making it in my past life. It was the only thing that could calm my Avery down whenever her blood condition flared up and caused her violent seizures. When I saw Cassian gasping for air in the car, clutching his chest in pure agony, my instincts as a desperate mother simply took over. I just assumed it would work on him, too.After I found out about Avery’s condition, I spent every single day buried in ancient medical books. I learned advanced first aid, trauma care and the art of brewing specialized remedies. I created dozens of unique potions, some of which defied the natural laws of herbs and healing. All because I was desperate. I wanted to do every single
Last Updated: 2026-08-15
Chapter: Cassian's POVIt was not supposed to react like this, not now... especially in front of her. A sharp, searing heat ripped through my ribs, taking my breath away in a split second. The agony was so blinding. It felt as if a thousand white-hot needles were driving straight into my muscle, tearing through the flesh over my heart. Ever since I made that forbidden request to rewind time, this mark had appeared on my chest. A dark, cursed tattoo of a bleeding heart wrapped tightly in jagged thorns. Every time it pulsed, it bled and every time it bled, it tge thorns became real and were covered in my blood...the pain dragged me and my wolf to the absolute edge of madness and intense pain threatening to make me pass out right there and then. I had gone back to the coven of witches, demanding answers. They looked at the mark with wide, fearful eyes, admitting they had never seen anything like it. They warned me it was likely a punishment or a curse from the Moon Goddess for defying the natural order and
Last Updated: 2026-08-11
Chapter: Iris's POV The priest cleared his throat, his hands trembling slightly as he held the sacred book. "Cassian Blackwood, do you take Iris Silvermoon to be your Queen, your mate, and your protected, to honor and cherish through life and death?" Cassian did not hesitate. His blue eyes stayed locked on mine, deep and unreadable. "I do." "And do you, Iris Silvermoon, take Cassian Blackwood to be your King, your husband, and your protector, to honor and stand beside through life and death?" My throat felt tight. Five years of nightmare memories tried to pull me back, but I pushed them down. I looked into Cassian's cold, handsome face. "I do," I said. "By the grace of the Moon Goddess, I pronounce you husband and wife. You may seal the union." Cassian stepped closer, his broad frame blocking out the light of the altar. He gently took my jaw in his hand, his touch surprisingly warm, and pressed his lips to mine. The kiss was brief, but a strange, faint spark buzzed against my skin. It was not the
Last Updated: 2026-08-11
Chapter: Iris's POVThe heavy double doors at the back of the venue banged open, echoing off the stone walls of the chapel. "I object!" Kael shouted, his chest heaving as he marched down the center aisle. His eyes were wide and red, staring straight at me as if I had betrayed him. The crowd of pack elders and guests gasped, whispering furiously among themselves and eside me, Cassian did not even turn around. His large, warm hand simply tightened around mine, his icy blue eyes fixed on my face with a terrifying calmness. "Iris, what are you doing?" Kael demanded, stopping right at the foot of the altar. He looked past the priest, pointing a shaking finger at Cassian. "You cannot marry him...you’re supposed to marry me. We are meant to be together and you , you know that. I do not accept this!" A cold and bitter sting hit my chest, but I kept my posture straight. My wolf, Anya paced inside my mind, her fur bristling with dark hatred." Keep your head up Iris," Anya growled smoothly. " Look at this path
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Chapter: Cassian's POVI changed back into my human form and pulled my coat over my shoulders. The wind at the border was freezing. My mind had been restless all night, and my Lycan was pacing inside me, driving me to run wild along the edge of our territory like a caged beast. Suddenly, a sharp smell of blood hit my nose. "Blood," my Lycan growled low in my head. At first, I thought it was just a wounded animal or a rogue hunting near the boundary lines. But as I took a step closer to the treeline, a strange force pulled hard at my chest. It was a heavy, magnetic pull that made my soul ache and urged me to run towards it. I ran as fast as I could through the dark woods, following the heavy smell of fresh blood. I pushed past the thick bushes and stopped dead in my tracks. My heart completely stopped. Lying lifeless on the cold earth was the body of a woman. Her black dress was torn and soaked in her own blood with her pale hands resting limply in the dirt. " No.... Mate! That is our mate!" my Lycan
Last Updated: 2026-07-30
Chapter: Iris's POVMy eyelids felt impossibly heavy. I slowly opened them, blinking against the bright sunlight streaming through the window. I sat up, my heart pounding in my chest as I looked around the room. I was expecting to see the cold ground of the Lycan border or the dark walls of Kael’s pack house. But my jaw dropped. White silk curtains covered my windows, a crystal chandelier sparkled above me and the polished wooden furniture matched everything I remembered from my youth. I looked at the fireplace and saw a huge portrait of myself and realization hit me. I was in my room... in my parents' estate, the Moonstone Pack. "What is going on?" I thought, my mind spinning. "Why am I here?" "Iris?"a familiar voice called inside my head. "Anya?" I gasped out loud. "Anya, you are back!" "I am here, Iris!"Anya spoke, her voice clear and strong in my mind. "What happened? After we got hit by that dart, everything went black. I was knocked out by the poison....I tried to reach you, but I disap
Last Updated: 2026-07-30
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