My Crave, My Ruin

I looked at the baby carrot in my hand and wished his dick would shrink to the size of it, I loved to munch on baby carrots but even they didn’t help relieve my stress in that moment.

“ Rush to the pharmacy and get these specific condoms and let me prepare something special for you,” he said and little did I know it was a set up to humiliate me.

I came back to our hotel room and could hear breathless pants and moans. I held on to the hope that it was just one of Nathan’s friends that had attended the graduation, but when I turned on the light , my blood ran cold.

“ Nathan…Jesssica?”

He was on top of her, or should I say inside her fully naked and panting like a dog. “ Shit, Sienna.” He said getting up reaching for a towel while Jessica lay there with a smiling like she had just hit a jackpot.

“ What time did you get here, I sent you to—”

“ Run around the city while you screw my cousin?” I snapped.

“ No that’s not the case babe, I, well, I’m sorry.”

“ You don’t even have an excuse!” I blurted out trying to hide the tremble in my voice. “ Okay…okay this is a mistake, I forgive you okay…now get dressed our uber will be here soon and our flight departs in hour will talk about this later.”

My eye twitched and everything seemed to blur for a moment. “ I’ll wait for you in the other room,” I said walking out praying it was all just a nightmare. I caught Jessica’s glare at the corner of my eye, her smile barely faded and she still lay there naked, with no guilt or panic.

When I walked out, I expected Nathan to follow me, to run after me or beg and give me an explanation or something to stop me from spiraling. But instead the door was slammed shut followed by the sound of turning keys.

I turned and reached for the handle…my heart almost stopped,they locked me out. I turned the handle over and over again, I even tried knocking and calling out to Nathan but Jessica’s moans were the only response I got,“ Oh my goodness Nathan, you’re the best.” followed by Nathan groaning.”Oh yes, you’re such a good girl spread your legs for me.”

My entire body trembled and my hands shook uncontrollably, I could feel a lump foaming in my throat…He chose her over me.

My phone pinged, a notification from Uber lighting my screen. I wasn’t going to stay there and let her moaning torment me. Or maybe I should have asked someone to break the door down for me , but hiw was I supposed to explain that my boyfriend was screwing my cousin.

Holding back the tears that threatened to spill I ran outside trying to catch my breath, it wasnt a dream it was real.

I peered out the window watching the city lights pass by as my uber drove to the airport. Hours ago I had just graduated, and I was expecting a proposal from my boyfriend Nathan of four years. I had seen him selecting ring designs and overheard him on a phone call telling the person the day and place to deliver the ring and the date and place just happened to be my graduation ceremony.

And to celebrate, I had booked us a stay at a fancy resort in New York but ended up leaving without him. He sent me on a wild goose chase looking for ‘condoms that didn’t irritate him’, and when I returned to the hotel I caught the bastard deep inside my so called cousin and he was hitting it raw.

Perfect way to ruin my day, I mean I saw the huge red flags being waved in my face but I ignored them all. My best friend Nina had warned me about them but I was too blinded by his lies.

I wasn’t going to let him spoil what I worked so hard for, I was going to the resort with or without. My flight was in 45 minutes time, I tried by best no to let it get to me but it stung and the more I tried to distract myself something about him would pop up on my phone.

By the time I arrived at the airport, I passed through the security checkpoint and made my way to the boarding gate, and everywhere I turned they were couples. Well it was a couples resort package and I was the odd one out. A lump formed in my throat as my chest tightened but I pressed on keeping my head up even though my chest burnt.

When I took my seat, I heaved a sigh, but all eyes were on me. Nathan’s seat was empty, of course I’d draw eyes, but it didn’t matter.

“ Two hours,” I told myself, that’s how long it would take to fly from California to New York, what’s the worst that could happen?

I wished I hadn’t uttered those words cause the worst actually happened. The flight attendants made the passengers participate in stupid couple games, and the worst part of it was when they gave them mics to talk about their partners and how much they meant to them. And there I was shifting uncomfortably in my seat, smiling through it all like my heart hadn’t shattered into a million pieces. That was the most lonely I had felt in my life, not even my mothers death made me feel like this and I endured it all till we landed.

To hide my shame I immediately booked an Uber to the hotel resort and upon arrival I checked in.

“Sienna Blake?” The receptionist asked as she handed me the key card, I forced a smile as I took it and headed to my room. When I stood at the door the scent of lavender hit me. I stood their rubbing the bridge of my nose, earlier I had asked for them to decorate the entire room to make it romantic and sexy.

After a few deep breaths I swiped my card and swung the door open, red balloons and confetti came falling down slowly as the lights dimmed and romantic music started to play.

My eyes burnt and I could feel the tears starting to form as my bad bitch character crumbled. I let go of my bags and dropped to my knees in tears, I couldn’t hold it in anymore.

“ How could you do this to me?” I whispered to myself trembling. Four years relationship down the drain, like it was nothing. I had been patient and waited for the day he’d make me his wife, the day he’d touch and make love to me. But he never did, no mater how hard I tried to doll myself up and look sexy, it was like I had a disease he didn’t want to contract.

“ No, no,no.” I said as my body shook.“ I won’t let him ruin my special day,” I said quickly wiping my tears with trembling hands looking at the bottles of wine in the ice buckets. I opened one and poured some wine for myself and raised the glass, “ here’s a toast to me,” and I gulped the entire glass down.

I went to my room, another decorated horror and on the bed lay some nightwear , a pair red lingeries, some cuffs, feathers, blind folds and so many nasty things.

I just looked at them and scoffed, but I as I said earlier nothing would go to waste. I put on the lingerie and poured myself some more wine and put on some sensual music.

Since Nathan wouldn’t touch me, I touched myself most of the time and with the toys around I might just do it anyways.

I put the glass aside and took the vibrator and slowly I started to caress myself. Putting the pillow in the centre, I sat on it and whined my waist as though I was grinding on someone. I spanked and pinched my nipples feeling my arousal build up, and slowly slid the other hand into my panties and let out a soft moan. I deserved it.

With my fingers rubbing against my clit, my hips grinding even faster all I needed was to engage my vibrator. I turned and lay on top of the pillow with my legs spread wide and turned on the vibrator, pressing it on my already wet pussy.

A shiver ran down my spine, my body trembling as waves of warmth spread through me. A long, breathy “Ohhhh…” escaped my lips, my fingers gripping the sheets as every nerve seemed to come alive. My heart raced, and I couldn’t help the soft, involuntary noises that spilled out with each pulsing touch.

I closed my eyes, then rolled them back as sensation spread through me making my breath hitch. I increased the pulse, the vibrators hum getting as loud as my moan and I instantly curled my toes.

I turned the setting higher, then higher again till I reached the last setting, and the vibration got more pleasurable lighting up every nerve in my body. My eyes rolled back as a shaky “Ohhhh…” spilled from my mouth, my toes curling tight as I arched my back , barely able to breathe. I could feel it I was about to come, “ Yes, yes , yes.”

I was so close to cuming , when I rolled my eyes I saw something black at the center of the room which forced me to open my eyes. My entire body froze and I went as pale as a ghost. I quickly sat up and threw the vibrator, my eyes wide in disbelief. There was a man standing in the middle of the room, watching me.