I sighed as I threw my bag on the floor. This was the longest day ever because it started awfully with a beautiful monster breathing right under my neck.
The day went by a little bit better though, I found out that my four other teachers were less cunts and less beautiful like my class teacher a.k.a thee beautiful Ms Louw.
I kicked my shoes off and threw myself in bed taking my phone out. I needed to call my best friend right now.
I dialled her numbers and she immediately answered as if she was waiting for my call..
'ahhhhhh babeeee I have been waiting for this phone call since last year.. the fuck took you so long?'
I laughed at her exaggeration, "stop being an ass, how are you and how was school today?"
She scoffed, 'bitch.. shouldn't I be the one asking you that, remember that you're the one who changed schools, not me..'
I rolled my eyes as if she could see me, "so school was fine.."
'just fine? Olz come on.. it should have been something. I mean where's the juicy staff, who was hot and who eyed you?'
She was rambling, I laughed at her and shook my head a bit, "umh someone very bitchy was hot... and well no one eyed me. I was cooped up in being the new student and hardly looked around me."
'the hot bitch.. tell me about her..'
I sighed not really wanting to start talking about my hot English teacher, I mean I was going to start thinking about her and I'll get mad at how inconsiderate she was to me and how bitchy she was.
"Precious it's no use talking about her."
'oh fuck if it's a her it's definitely a use talking about her.. and since you mentioned her, she's worth this talk.. so spill.' My friend said a bit stern making me laugh a bit. She would die because of gossip.
"Okay fine... She's hot.. so hot it's fucken distracting me.. like I'm asking myself how will I be able to sit in a class and look at her all year without grouping her.."
My best friend laughed on the other side of the phone, 'your fucken classmate, dude, why the fuck did she stand out on your first day..? Oh wait, is she like those blonde annoying chicks in movies who have two stupid followers and do everything in power to put you down because you as hot as her..?'
I closed my eyes and laid back in bed, you know when God was giving people best friends, he decided to give me an idiot.. like sometimes I'd ask myself how I'm friends with her and then I'd get it... I love her with everything in me.. and she's the most idiotic, sweetest, cruel person ever..
"No.. God how I wish it was like that... She's not blonde.. She doesn't have followers but she's smoking hot, way hotter than me and she's a no go zone..." I said the last part more to myself.
Back in Eastern Cape I was a bit of a player, my demons at home had me wondering around and fucking girls like it's nobody's business....oh yeah and drinking almost every weekend. The abuse was physically at first, mom would see, and I even told her. She'd make an excuse or say it was a punishment. I mean who punishes their daughter until they bleed..
'no go zone? The fuck did you do to my best friend? She never and I mean never uttered those words before. You can get any girl you want..'
I shook my head paying attention back to Rosie, "No.. not her. She's one girl I can't get..."
'why? Is she Asian? I heard it's a multiracial school... I mean your ass is already Lin.. you sound Chinese.. so why not go with the flow...'
I laughed at how stupid she sounded, "she's a no fucken go zone because she was standing in front of the class, humiliated me in front of everyone and happens to be the...."
'where the fuck was the teacher when she was doing all that?' My best friend asked after a gasp.
I rolled my eyes, she cut me off while I was going to tell her that she happens to be the teacher..
"She's the teacher.."
I busted out with laughter, Rosie sounded so shocked when she asked that it almost killed me.
"You heard me..."
'no fuck I didn't.. you need to repeat that and I need water.. or maybe something stronger if I heard you well..'
"You heard me very well, she's my class teacher and my English teacher.. like I know I did a lot of girls wrong there, but I don't deserve to find my teacher hot as fuck... but darn she's a snack..."
Rosie laughed, 'so, how old does she look.. is she your kind? What did she actually bitch about.. maybe she wasn't bitching, maybe you just overreacted.'
I rolled my eyes thinking about what she was saying. I didn't overreact, Valentia Hot Louw was definitely being a bitch towards me today.
"She looks 23 or 27 I'm not sure... I'd let her hit it any time.. which makes her my type. And the last part, Rosie, she was a fucken bitch.. made me feel so small and made stupid remarks about me being from a small school and Johannesburg being everything.. I don't know, I felt like kissing her or smacking her... she was sexy but bitchy... still it."
My best friend laughed and my bedroom door opened startling me.
Mom showed her face in, "hey babe, dinner will be ready in two minutes... please join us, and I can't wait to hear about your first day..."
I nodded, "I'll be there now now mom let me finish this call with Rosie.."
"Hey Rosie..." mom yelled and my best friend yelled in my ear, "heeeeeeeeey mommy..."
"Rosie my mom can't hear you, you're making noise for me..." I said and turned to my mom, "mom Rosie says she misses you and when can she visit.."
"I'll talk to your father and maybe she'll visit during the coming easter holidays.." mom said and then closed the door.
I was left squealing with excitement..
'you bitch.. I didn't say that. I don't want to visit you.. '
I laughed, "oh did I tell you I have my own room, there's a swimming pool and the girl next door might be just your type..."
'fuckkk okay I'm coming, your dad better say yes...'
I laughed again. I missed her and having her visit would actually mean the world.. I mean I was here for four days and the only people I know is Susan my classmate and Valentia Bitchy Louw... other than those two I knew absolutely no one who stayed here...
"Look idiot I have to go eat and lie to my perfect family about how amazing my day was at the new school."
She laughed and said bye too.
Rosie and I have been friends since kindergarten and I first came out to her when I was in grade 7 because there was this hot girl in our class. She came out two years later telling me she likes girls too. We never actually thought about being together because we were basically sisters.
I put my phone on charge and went downstairs to join everyone.
Lizzie came in running holding a paper, "Oly... look I made this at school today.."
I saw a drawing of two sticks with heads and hands.. I smiled, "who are these skinny people? Don't they eat?"
She laughed, "It's you and meeee.. my teacher said we should draw people we love and I drew you..."
I picked her up and put her on my lap, "well when my teacher tells me to drow a person I love, I'll draw you and me too.. trust that little kitten.."
"Argg you're funny..." she said while laughing and I kissed her all over her face..
"Hey guys..." mom said walking in holding our food.
"You need help?"
She shook her head, "no honey I'm done..."
We all started eating and she and him kept on exchanging glares I didn't understand. I sighed, "so did you find Lizzie's things for school.."
"Your father said we will go tomorrow since it's Saturday..."
I nodded, "that's great.."
"So... how was school? Made any friends yet?" My father asked after a few minutes of silence.
I shrugged, "no friends yet.. and well school was just school."
"Just school? Come on.. it's an all girls school, how hard can it be to just make friends..?" he asked.
I sighed, "It's really hard.. it's not like we are all just bunch of girls who love writing and playing soccer like me..."
"Told you to play netball.. it's ladylike, unlike your soccer.." he said and I furrowed my brows at my mom as if to tell her to actually stop her husband. She shrugged and I turned to my dad to talk but my sister's tiny voice stopped me.
"What's ladylike daddy?" Lizzie asked and I almost busted out with laughter.
"It's being a lady honey..." he answered.
"Oly is a lady.. a beautiful lady.." my sister said and I smiled kissing her hand.
"Yeah she is honey.. she really is..." her father said and my whole body grew cold to him saying that.
I quickly got up, "I'm.. I'm going to go.."
"But honey you hardly touched your food..." mom complained but I wasn't in the mood or even hungry anymore, "I.. I have homework.. goodnight."
I got inside my bedroom and locked my door then took the chair next to my study table and put it by the door too...
I stood next to my bed breathing heavily. I hated this.. I hated this.. I fucken hated this.
I went to my bedroom to change into my PJs. I needed to sleep and I needed to sleep fast.
I went to bed and sat there for a while... my body was shaking and my mind was all over the place....
fuck.. sleep wasn't going to happen anytime soon... not while I was like this.. not while my mind was running like this.
I went to my bathroom and looked for any medication but found nun. I sighed and sat back in bed. I then remembered that I stashed alcohol when we arrived here under my bed.
I quickly went on my knees and found a bottle of vodka. I got water from my bedroom and mixed it then started drinking.. at least I'll forget.. at least I won't dream...
"Oh hey.. look who's early..." Susan said sitting on the chair next to me and I sighed tirelessly, "It's the girl from the small school in Eastern Cape.."
The girl furrowed her brows, "what's up? What does that mean?"
I rolled my tired eyes, "everyone here doesn't wanna talk to me because they think I'm that dumb girl who's from a small school.. I'm surprised you're still talking to me.."
"You look like shit...." the girl said and I burped, "umh.. well I feel like shit....and I hate this school thanks to Ms Louw..."
She laughed, "you'll love her soon.. She's way too hot for you to hate on her..."
I laughed, "uhh okay?"
I turned to look at her and she furrowed her brows at me, "dude what the fuck happened to your eyes?"
I sighed, last night I didn't sleep at all, I have been crying and drinking all night. I was so fucken tired right now it wasn't even funny.
"Okay I have sun glasses, you have put them on.. you look like you drank blood.."
I rolled my eyes at how she was exaggerating...but took the glasses either way and put them on.
"Hey guys..." the hot devil walked in and I felt like telling her she's fucken late and made us wait.. but I didn't want to attract any attention to us.. worse now that I looked like shit.
"So today we will just watch a movie and analyse it.. I'll give you copies of the questions so that you can answer while watching. And if you have any question come to me on my desk." She said and I lifted my head up a bit watching her.
Today she had black shorts that were a bit above her knees and a white golf t-shirt with white sneakers and a black cap.. I watched on her wrist there was a gold watch.. like this woman was just so fucken hot... I could watch her all the time.
"Here please pass these.. and when I call your name. Come see me." She instructed giving the girl in front of him copies of our papers.
I didn't want my name to be called.. I wasn't ready to have her tell me her shit.
Susan turned to me, "this isn't your day bud.. you are going to get caught anyways.."
I scoffed at her, "don't you have like a pair of eyes.. like I can really use them..."
She laughed and God that got attention.
My whole body went cold..
"Lin lift your head up when I'm talking to you..."
I kept it down and shut my eyes, I wasn't laughing.. Susan was. I didn't need this. I was fucken tired.
"Lin you're testing me... I'm talking to you!"
I sighed and lifted my head up, "I didn't do anything..."
"Oh hey look you have sun glasses.." she said sarcastically.
The whole class laughed. I swallowed very hard trying not to cry. I couldn't. Not here in front of everyone.. I tried so hard not to cry last night, I couldn't allow them now..
"Lin take those off..."
I kept quiet and just looked at her.
"Dude take them off..." Susan said and Ms Louw smiled showing me a fucken dimple.. wown. This woman... she just surprises me all the time.. oh did I tell you she's got a double chin? She was just so fucken beautiful it was insane..
"Olwethu take off those glasses or get out of my class.. you're disrupting us.." she said sternly and I knew I had to leave. I couldn't let her see me like this. I couldn't let anyone see me like this.
I put my book back in my bag and got up heading to the door. I honestly was going home. Any punishment I'd deal with on Monday.
I got out and soon felt a hand pull me.
"you really fucken know how to test me don't you!" She asked pinning me against the wall right next to the door.
I was so close to her I could feel her breath on my face.. and oh God she smelled so fucken nice. I had no idea what to do or even say. She closed the gap between us and furrowed her brows at me sexily, "why do you insist on testing my patience Olwethu..?"
I shook my head, "I'm not testing you I swear.. you just fucken hate me."
She laughed and shook her head, "should I take these off..."
"No.. please no..." I begged.
She lifted her hand high to try and remove my glasses but I knew I couldn't let her see me. So tried to push her off and to my surprise she did the only thing that I thought would never happen.... she closed the gap between us capturing my lips with hers. I was shocked and confused but before I could do anything she pulled away and she was holding the sun glasses.
She stared at me in shock and I roughly pushed her body off mine.
"I'm so sorry... I'm sorry..." she said in the most softest voice ever. A voice I never thought I'd hear...
"What happened to you?"
Oh.. so now she fucken cared? Fuck her...! I shook my head and pushed her aside and left her standing there.
A knock on my door startled me. I quickly got up and knocked a bottle to the ground. Thank fuck I had hardwood floors and it just made a weird sound and not of a glass.'honey are you okay? What's that?'I wiped sleep off my face, "I'm okay mom... I'll bath and be down."'hurry up, It's six and your transport will be here in 30 minutes...'I rolled my eyes my eyes but stood up to fix my bed anyways. I took the vodka bottle and pushed it under my bed then went to my bathroom and quickly ran the shower, I wouldn't have time to bath. I felt a bit dizzy but I managed to finish up in time.Today was Friday so I had my gray trousers ready and a school golf t-shirt with sneakers. I smiled looking at my messy hair in the mirror, this school was so awsome but had to have bitchy teachers like Ms Louw who I fucken had a dream about. Like couldn't I dream about Mrs Lattimore? She's mor
I started feeling way too hot. My breathing hitched. I felt like the walls were closing in. I held my neck and tried to breath slowly but it wasn't helping."Lin!" I heard a voice from afar.I slowly concentrated on trying to get me back to breathing normally. I was going to kill Stacy.. I swear to God. The bitch knew nothing about me yet she was making my life a living hell.. I mean she already did that.. told everyone at school I'm the dumb ass girl that comes from a small school.. and now she was lying about me beating her up. She was about to find out what beating her up for real really is.I was going to be in deep shit because of her lie. I was going to get beat up and probably more because of her lie.I felt a bit scared. I knew he was going to be mad and I'd pay for it and I knew she wouldn't do anything about it."Lin... Olwethu..." Ms Louw's voice said sna
After my teacher dropped me off I went to get something to eat and then headed to my bedroom. I was planning on doing my school work, a few workouts and then sleeping. Saturday was here and I didn't want anything standing on my way... not even my stupid injured ankle.I threw my bag on the floor and started eating. But my phone rang immediately.Shit... I haven't talked to Precious since the incident..."Hey idiot...." I said trying to be all cheerful but I knew it wasn't going to go like that.'really ass? What the fuck is wrong with you?' "Nothing.. how are you?" I said changing the subject.I heard her scoff, 'don't fuck with me, dude you have been ignoring my texts and calls.. what the fuck is going on?' I sighed, I wasn't ready to get into this, "Precious..."'to you it's fucken Rosie and not Preci
I banged my door so hard and went straight on my knees to look under the bed.. to my surprise my door opened and a tiny voice said, "Olllllly..."I turned around to my little sister. She smiled, "daddy said we are going to watch you play soccer tomorrow.."I furrowed my brows at her and got up to sit in bed, "umhm.. not happening..""Definitely happening.. what time are the tryouts, I wanna see my daughter do something that she loves." Sipho said walking in.I watched as he stood in the middle of the room and looked around. He hasn't been in my bedroom since we got here and I personally made sure of that.My room wasn't as glamorous as the rest of the house was, it was my bed which had a black and red cover.. a study table by the corner and a closet that led to my bathroom..."Umh dad that's not necessary... you guys can bond and all that, I'll be fine.."
You know the shittiest thing about memory is that it linger on something longer than you'd ever want it to. Sometimes that's good because well other things are good to think about but sometimes it's horrible when it stays on the past.The car parked outside the Lewis mansion a a few roads from our house. Wow! Their house was to die for."Beautiful house..." my mom said and Lizzie laughed, "It's hugeeeee..."We went to knock on the main door and it swung open a few minutes later revealing a very smiling Stacy wearing a black short dress and sandals."Hi Stacy.. how are you?" My dad said and the girl smiled making me roll my eyes."I'm fine thanks and how are you Mr Lin..? Come on in, my parents are waiting..."My parents walked in with my little sister in their hand, I trailed in behind then and was startled to feel something hold my hand."Wa
I was totally getting drained by this. Ms Louw was pissed at me and I failed to understand why. I mean did I cross the line by asking her if she was jealous?I sighed as I made my way to school on Wednesday. Yesterday she didn't talk to me one bit and I have to admit that I minda missed her.Susan and soccer kept me busy though and Stacy was less of a bitch as she said she would be.We were now getting ready for the match on Friday and it was just frustrating since my ankle wasn't okay.I promised to talk to coach about it after school.So this other thing.. girls throwing themselves at me. It was growing rapidly... to even my Facebook. I had over 700 friend requests pending, already 4,989 friends and about three thousand followers.. it was insane.. how I went from being that lesbian kid from a small school to this hot lesbian who can play soccer.I later fo
My mind couldn't literally process what was happening right now. Her lips were still lingering on mine as we deepened the kiss.I pulled away to get some air. God! Her lips were so soft I didn't want to stop and she tasted so good.She was looking at me with a small smile on her face, "you okay?"I smiled and nodded my head, "yeah...""You sure?" She asked moving her thumb on my cheek caressing it a bit.I had a few options then, I could just nod my head or tell her that I'm actually pretty sure that I'm okay.. or I could do exactly what I'm thinking. So without thinking myself out of this, I pulled her head down and reconnected our lips again.She responded quickly. Her hand holding on tight around my waist. We kissed and then she pulled away.. totally away I felt a bit empty.I started to freak out.. God what if she regreted it.
My dreams were getting worse and draining me.. today was Thursday and I was tired as fuck like the past three days.I slowly got up and went to the bathroom. I hated how my head worked, how I would dream about this over and over again once I start putting it back in my head.I tried to talk on Monday and Wednesday after school but I just couldn't. I ended up crying.. she asked if he hits me and I nodded... she just hugged me and told me it will be okay and she'll always be here.. I was glad she didn't ask further than that. I don't think I was ready to tell her what my "father" did to me.I bathed and fixed myself. I was very tired of waking up and then trying to go back to sleep. I hardly slept."You look like a zombie..." my sister said when I joined them downstairs and I rolled my eyes, "you look like an expired Barbie..."She frowned, "mommmm...""Olweth