LOGINVENICEThe Alder Street Theatre smells like old velvet and floor polish, and I'd know that smell with my eyes closed. It goes straight into my chest and stays there.A man in a maroon vest blocks the door to the stalls with a flashlight he clearly doesn't need. He's about seventy, built like a wardrobe, with white eyebrows that look like they've been trained for combat."Tickets," he says.Julian hands them over. The man reads both stubs slowly, then lifts his eyes to Julian, then to me, then back to Julian. "Row F. You're early, kid.""Gus, this is Venice. Venice, this is Gus. He's been running this door since before I was born.""Since before your father was born," Gus corrects, and his eyebrows climb. "Phones off, miss. Last month a man took a call during the death scene. I removed him by the elbow.""What happened to him?" I ask."Banned until March." He jerks his head toward the aisle. "Seats are on the left. Don't cry in the second act. I mop that row myself."I laugh out loud,
VENICEI wake up on Friday to the smell of burning toast.It creeps down the hall and under the guest room door, sharp enough that I pull the pillow over my face and think, for one hopeful second, that the kitchen is on fire. Then I hear Belle's voice from downstairs, dry as the toast. "Sir, that's the third one."I put on my robe and go to look.Soren is standing at the stove, barefoot, in a gray T-shirt and last night's sweatpants, holding a spatula like it might bite him. Three black slices sit on a plate. An egg is sliding down the cupboard door. Belle leans against the fridge with her arms folded and the face of a woman who has seen a lot in this house and is now seeing the worst of it.In all the months we shared a bedroom, he was dressed and gone before I opened my eyes. I can count on one hand the mornings I saw him before he'd put his shoes on. Walking in on him like this feels like walking in on a stranger.He turns, and the stranger smiles, crooked, with a dimple I'd forgot
SORENLiz is still crying when I sit down beside her.It's the quiet kind now, and she's twisting my handkerchief into a rope between her fingers. I pour tea into a clean cup and push it across the table. Her hand shakes so badly the cup chatters on the saucer."Hey. Drink that.""I can't!" She presses the back of her wrist to her nose. "She hates me, Soren, and she's right to! Every time I come here I make it worse, and I still keep coming. What is wrong with me?""Nothing's wrong with you. You felt guilty about the rain, that's all.""You were sick!" Her voice splinters. "You were in this house with a fever, and I was in my apartment staring at my phone like an idiot, and I couldn't stand it! I just needed to see you were breathing!"It gets me, the way it always has. Her tears go straight through the part of me that's supposed to stay sensible, and I hate that I can't sit next to them and do nothing. I put my hand over hers until the shaking slows."I'm breathing, Liz. Look at me.
VENICESoren's footsteps come back down the hall, and I know the second he stops in the dining room doorway what he's looking at.Elizabeth is bent over in his chair, crying into his handkerchief. He's across the room before I can finish my toast, crouching beside her knees with one hand on the armrest."Liz. What happened? I was gone two minutes.""She won't forgive me!" Her breath hitches on every word. "I apologized, Soren, I said it over and over, and she just kept eating like I wasn't even here! What else does she want from me?"He lifts his head and looks at me. It's the look he gives Nathan when a deal goes wrong, level, with a lecture sitting right behind it. "What did you say to her?""The truth." I hold his gaze while I pick up my cup and drink the last of my tea, because I refuse to let him see my hand shake. "Ask her what it was.""She said I could have you!" Elizabeth's voice cracks in half. "Like you're a leftover she doesn't want to finish!""That's the part you're goin
VENICEI answer Julian at six in the morning, before I can talk myself out of it. (Yes. Saturday at seven.) Then I sit on the edge of the bed with the phone in my lap and a ridiculous, nervous flutter in my stomach, because ever since I made the decision to leave, I've found that there's more outside this marriage, so much more. And the thought of it excites me more than anything else.When I get downstairs, Soren is already at the table.He should be in bed. Belle told him so twice, and I told him once, loudly, and he ignored us both. He's sitting there in a gray sweater with a blanket over his knees and a cup of tea going cold in front of him, his face as white as the tablecloth with his laptop up and running, and when I come in he tries to smile."Morning.""You should be upstairs." I can't help the chill in my voice, after last night, creating enough distance between us was neccesary. I couldn't let myself be swayed like I almost was."The fever's gone down. Belle took it twice
VENICESoren stays quiet, surprisingly, he doesn't tell me not to speak about his precious Elizabeth that way.The silence feels like it lasts forever.The car has barely stopped in the driveway when Soren opens his door and climbs out, and the first thing I notice is that he doesn't get far. He puts one hand on the roof, and his knees bend slightly, as if the ground has tilted under him, and he stands there swaying with his head hanging and his breath coming in short, uneven puffs."Soren?""I'm okay." He says it to the gravel. "Just a bit dizzy.""You're not fine." I'm out of my side and around the bonnet before I've thought about it, my hand clamping onto his elbow. Even through the wet sleeve, he's too warm. "You're swaying like a drunk.""I haven't had a drop." He gives me a small grin that has me rolling my eyes."I know, you idiot. Walk."The front door flies open before we reach it, and Belle stands there in her dressing gown with her gray hair in a plait and one hand pressed







