Had A Busy Day

    When I get home I find my mom in the kitchen having a cup of tea so I join her. I take my boots and rain jacket off at the door, drop my bag on a chair, wash my hands, and grab a mug to fill with water. I sit in the chair across from my mom and drop a tea bag into my mug full of water. My mom is wearing her red bath robe and her hair is wrapped up in a silk scarf. I yawn, stretch, and wrap my hands around the warm mug and relax in my chair.

"It seems as though you've had a busy day," mom says smiling at me and touching my hair.

"Yeah, I did. I'm glad that I called Rylie and Nova and met up with them today," I say to my mom feeling sleep weigh on me.

"I'm glad you did too. Your eyes are glowing with life and happiness," my mom says.

"I didn't realize that they were devoid of life; Nova and Rylie said kind of like the same thing earlier," I respond putting sugar into my tea and taking a sip. Wow, this past year has been crazy and I can barely remember it; I think to myself.

"I'm sorry if I made you feel some kind of way," mom says crinkling her eyes in an apologetic way.

"It's okay mom, I'm glad I'm having this reawakening," I respond to her. My eyes feel so heavy I think I'm going to call it a night soon.

"I'm glad as well. I see that you are barely hanging on, so go ahead and go to bed. I'll clean up here," mom says stroking my face.

"Okay mom. Love you, goodnight," I say pushing my chair back and grabbing my bag off the chair.

"Love you too Lena, goodnight," mom says as she's washing our mugs and spoons.

        I drag myself up the stairs to my bedroom and prepare to take a shower. I remove most of my clothes, grab my oversized bath towel, and head into the bathroom in my room. While I run the shower water I take down my pony tail and moisturize my hair and put about eight twists in it; by the time I finish that the water is hot enough for me to get into the shower. While in the shower I reflect on all that happened today from 'breakfast' with Mekhi to having dinner with Nova and Kylie. This reawakening has me wondering how was I able to just live life doing the absolute bare minimum whereas today I feel so full of life. I am liking the person I'm becoming, owning myself and doing what I want to do when I want to do it; shedding my old self and blossoming into someone who is more than enough. With all of this self-love I feel flowing through me I grab my sugar scrub and give myself a good rub down letting all the thoughts of the day run free through my mind. After my shower I decide to use a face mask to continue my routine of cleansing and loving myself ending it all by brushing my teeth and moisturizing my body.

        When I leave my bathroom I feel more than refreshed and pull on a night shirt versus my old t shirt and basketball shorts combo. I grab my journal off my desk and decide to read a few past entries, first I flip the pages and find one from about six months ago. I lay on my stomach at the end of my bed and begin reading through the entry I barely recognize myself, everything is so formal and I don't even mention Nova and Rylie. It makes me sad just reading it, my life was dry, dull and simple. I turn to an entry from about three months ago and while there's a little more substance because I talk about my girls, it's only in passing; nothing like how we were tonight. When I'm finished reading I grab my favorite purple pen with the puff on the end and begin my latest entry in my journal. I fill it with as many details as I can remember from this morning; the way Mekhi smiled, how it made me feel; how I felt hanging out with the girls and what we ate for dinner. I just write and write and write until I am certain that I can't write anymore. When I'm finished I have filled four pages with details of the day and my feelings; I want to remember as much as I can. When I check the time I notice that it's almost midnight and my life changing day is coming to an end. I check my hair wrap once more to make sure it's secure, turn off the lights, and crawl into bed to finally get some rest.