Sparks of electricity ran from Rafał's mouth and tongue straight to his brain causing a short circuit. His brain turned out completely white and empty, but his tongue sought out Damian's tongue to entwine with it in a passionate dance.
Rafał felt Damian's arms on his back. First on his back, and then on...
“Uhm...” Brylski groaned uncomfortably and felt his consciousness begin to return. He broke the kiss and lowered his head, resting it heavily on Radosz's chest. His breathing was equally heavy.
He was dizzy. From happiness. From shame. From desperation.
Tears streamed down his cheeks.
The experiment had worked.
Rafal really wanted Damian.
His heart, his mind and... his body wanted him.
“I'm sorry” he said quietly freeing himself from Radosz's embrace and having turned so that he couldn't see his face, he walked away a few steps. “Give me a moment.”
Marzena Skierska was very kind to Anita Janiszek. Her cordiality surprised Rafał's friend. She approached the actress with some distance, expecting that she would want to get some information from her about Brylski. But that did not happen. After a few minutes Anita eased her suspicions and decided that Marzena really only needed someone's company.The hotel where they stayed was not top class, but it was the only one of such high class in this small town. That was why not all of the set's employees stayed here overnight, but only some of them. Marzena's assistant also had a room here, but perhaps she was currently somewhere in the city, or Skierska simply wanted to talk to a new person.Anita, however, was unable to be a good conversational companion today. She continually glanced nervously at the window through which she could see the entrance to the hotel. Although the torrential downpour that had broken up limited her visibility, Janiszek couldn't focus on anything
The whole way Rafał didn't look Damian in the eye. He didn't say a word to him. That hurt. Damian didn't understand why, but it hurt.When Radosz parked, Rafał quickly thanked him for tonight and ran to the hotel splashing the water that had accumulated in the puddles in the parking lot. He ran away as fast as if a pack of rabid dogs were chasing him.It was annoying. It was bloody annoying.Radosz had fallen into a foul mood. He wasn't gay and had never thought of being with a man, but today for some reason he was ready to do it. It was because that guy had kissed him first and aroused his desires and then... and then he said no, it wasn't going to happen. It's like promising a child candy and only giving him the paper.Bloody annoying!But maybe it had to do with Rafał's asexuality? Damian knew something about this sexual orientation, but did he know enough? Maybe he resented Rafał because he was judging him in the criteria of his own desire, or
While for any straight guy such an offer coming from a woman might be interesting, if it comes from a guy, it loses all its charm. So how could it sound in the ears of a man who was asexual? Didn't she sound like an insult by any chance? ‘Let's be sex friends even though you're not interested in sex.’ Yes, definitely an insult and a mockery.So Damian did something wrong to him after all!In no way, however, did he intend to resolve the situation through Janiszek. This was a private matter, solely between him and Rafał Brylski. Radosz did not even intend to show the woman that he might actually be guilty.“Ms. Janiszek” said Damian in his heart begging the woman to leave “I don't think you have the right to ask, but I will tell you what happened today. Rafał and I drank beer and when a storm was breaking we went to the set to secure it. When we finished our work, it was raining, so we waited on the set. What we talked about during t
Why did Damian have to come here and only make things worse? Why hadn't he given Rafał time to cool down, to come to grips with his heart and body, only to stimulate the flame that was now consuming all of Rafał?“Rafał, we haven't known each other long, but I already consider you my friend," Radosz announced. “I am really full of sympathy towards you. I really want us to be true friends, where we can trust each other with everything. That's why I want everything to be made clear between us too. Your kiss... it was magical. It triggered something unknown and pleasant in me. But I understand that in your situation you may have felt discomfort. I understand...”“Not at all!” denied Brylski hotly. “On the contrary, I really felt... I felt...”“Good?”Rafał did not have the courage or strength to answer. He only nodded shyly.Damian didn't take offense at him, didn't blame him for Rafał invading his
And besides, Damian realized, if this was Rafał's first time, it must have been a very strong emotional experience for him. Emotionally, but also physically.Radosz had had his first time a long time ago, but he remembered very well the anxiety he had felt then. Was it good enough? Did he give adequate satisfaction? Had he been a disappointment to his girlfriend?Today was also his first time, but of a slightly different nature, because with a man.Today, during the amorous raptures, he felt no anxiety, too engrossed in passion and pleasure, but for the inexperienced Rafał, this night must have been an extremely powerful experience.Especially since for Brylski sex in general was in slightly different criteria than for a typical man.So those tears in his eyes could have dozens of meanings, and Damian was afraid to ask which one was the right one.Rafał's whole face was full of emotion which made it even more appealing. Damian had the urge t
“Rafał” Damian didn't think about what he was saying, his words just came straight from his heart “despite what happened between us today, I hope you will still consider me a friend. You know, friends have different experiences between them. Maybe most of the time they're not that intimate, but even if they are, let's make them only strengthen our relationship, not spoil it, okay?”Was that even possible? If Damian had slept with a woman, could he dare to expect friendship from her yet?But Brylski was not a woman. He was a man. After one night together he should not expect any particular emotional closeness, Unless, in fact, with his asexuality he had developed a romantic feeling towards Radosz that allowed him to become demisexual.However, Damian could not know that for sure, although somewhere deep in his heart he hoped so.Rafał smiled at him, however, and something unpleasantly squeezed Radosz's stomach and heart.Woul
Rafał smiled pale and touched his body, first his lower abdomen, then his penis and finally the hollow between his buttocks. He hissed in pain and trembled. His own touch was nothing compared to the touch of another man. Compared to Damian's touch.Brylski tightened his eyelids. He did it so hard that he felt pain in his eyes. He himself didn't know what was trembling inside him more, his body or his heart.When Damian fondled him and then took him, for some reason all the natural reflexes of resistance to approach turned off in Rafał. He eagerly opened his arms, flexed his buttocks himself, and waited in tense anticipation for the pleasure he had so far only heard about and seen in secretly watched movies. Damian's arms, hot, strong but also tender, enveloped him, possessed him, giving him a hitherto unknown sense of security, not fear.They gave him exactly what Rafał had dreamed of all his life.Rafał laughed nervously in the silence of his hotel room.
It's not that Damian planned to cheat on her! After all, he didn't plan to succumb to some guy's charm and end up in his bed with him. It was a coincidence...A coincidence that he entered the other man's room through the balcony, that he kissed him first, that he then caressed him like crazy enjoying the smell of his body and the softness of his skin and then...Damian didn't act on purpose, he didn't plan what happened that night, but if a man can't control the temptation placed before him, can he call himself a man? Only animals act instinctively, without thinking about the consequences. If man loses his mind for a moment, he must reckon with the consequences of what he has then committed. This is what distinguishes humans from animals - consciousness.What Damian had committed, however, did not only concern himself. He had betrayed the woman he was about to marry and had done so with a young, impressionable man who had decided to have his first sexual experi