Greyson’s POV:I flew out of the bed and dashed in the direction of Jessy’s room where I found my daughter sitting on the floor at the end of the bed with her blanket clutched in her hands and her green bunny in a death grip on her other hand and tears streaming down her face. The moment she noticed my presence in the room, she immediately stood from her position, dropping everything that she had been holding on to and running into my arms. I had never seen Jessy so upset, she was literally bawling out her eyes and she looked inconsolable. She was in no headspace to tell me what was wrong so I didn’t push her, instead I kept my arms around her in a hug as tight as I could go without hurting her. “It’s okay baby. You’re fine. I’m here now.” I whispered comfortingly to her and while I was still talking Emilia burst into the room. The former maid looked like she had also been having a terrifying dream or maybe she had just woken up in shock from Jessy’s scream but her eyes were blown
Greyson’s POV: I watched Freya’s still body on the bed connected to more wires than I had ever seen together in a place at the same time and tears slipped from my eyes once more. The same way it had been for the last one week. I had managed to bring her back home and Clara had gone straight to work on her. It had been the most gruesome four hours of my life. I had been shut out of the room and no matter how much I pounded on the door or shouted to be let in so I could see Freya, I had just been ignored. And finally, after four long and painful hours, Clara had come with some news. Freya had lost the twins but she was still alive, well barely. Clara had assured me that she had only passed out from exhaustion, pain and loss of blood but that slowly but steadily she would make a full recovery.That was a week ago. Freya was yet to do more than stir a little from her position and I hadn’t left the chair that I was perched on for more than once a day to use the bathroom that adjoined
It felt like a long time that I had been stuck in this space where I could hear almost everything around me but I couldn’t see a thing or feel anything. Most of the voices around me sounded more like Greyson’s and occasionally I would hear the healer or Smith but it usually felt like those sounds were coming from behind a glass pane and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t ever fully hear the words being exchanged or react in the way that I wanted to. It just felt like I was stuck in a dream, where I knew it was a dream but I just couldn’t do anything to stop it or participate only watch it from whatever position I could find. One thing that I could feel though was the excruciating pain that emanated from different parts of my body. My shoulders and stomach seemed to have the worst pain from it all but those weren’t the things that hurt the most. Being stuck in this dreamlike state, where I went in and out of sleep without control also meant, having uncontrollable flashbacks. Th
In the darkness of the room, I watched the man that I loved sleep and the more I watched him the faster and harder the tears fell from my eyes. I failed him. He had been so excited to have a child with me, he had been looking forward to it with everything and I had dashed those hopes. Greyson had tried so hard to hide it but since I got back, I always caught his eyes moving to my stomach and the sadness that would cloud within his grey orbs when he would find the space empty usually made me hate myself even more. We were supposed to be a happy family, with two extra children along with Jessy, but now not only did I loose our twins, I had also lost my womb. There was no greater pain that the one that I was currently faced with. Not even the stabs came close to the pain that I felt now. As much as Greyson wanted to pretend, I knew that there had been a change between us and things were not as normal as they used to be. He was of course still the sweetest, most supportive, loving ma
“Are you alright?” Christie’s voice came pierced through my thinking and brought me back to reality. I offered the maid a small smile and picked up the knife that I had dropped previously to press the back of my palms to my head when it had begun to throb. “Of course, why?” I replied, trying my best to sound as cheerful as possible, but I could see I had overdone it from the way the maids face furrowed even more in suspicion. “Well I understand it’s been really hard for you recently and all, I just think you’re becoming a different person. You’re a lot more quiet nowadays and you’re always thinking. I mean I understand that everything that has happened has definitely really hit you hard but it feels even worse now, you know.” When Christie stopped talking, I paused for a couple of seconds to take in her words. I knew for a fact that I changed since after the incident, but I didn’t think that I had changed even more recently. “I-I’m sorry. I know it’s not my place. I just want you
Greyson’s POV: I couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe any of it, where did I go wrong? How was I the bad person for looking out for her and making sure she was okay? I almost lost her a month ago! I had been stuck here praying to the Goddess every night, hoping that she was alive and I was the most lucky man on earth because I had almost lost her, in fact I did but through some miracle, I have her with me again and she wanted me to take risks with her safety? How did she not understand that there was no way I could live without her? If anything ever happened to Freya, I wouldn’t survive it. She needed to know it. Once the initial shock from her slamming the door in my face faded away, I pulled open the door and stepped into the night air. Freya’s scent lingered in the air and I followed it until I could see her walking just ahead of me.I didn’t try to catch up to her or try to talk to her anymore. In fact, I maintained a good distance between us and just walked behind her, ma
There was no reason for me to be crying I was after all the one putting an end to it all but as I said those words I couldn’t help the stream of tears that fell down my face. “No, no Freya. You can’t. We are a family! I love you, and you said you love me too.” “I do, I really do. I just don’t think things are working out the way they should and the way they used to, maybe it’s a sign. You had a mate and maybe she’s supposed to be your one and only.”“If that was meant to be then she would be here with me right now. But she’s not. You can’t just leave, what I’m I supposed to do without you? What are we going to tell Jessy and then Simon?” I had never seen Greyson cry like the way he currently was doing ever before. It was so saddening to see the strongest man I knew cry as much. I wanted things to go back to normal, I wanted to be wrapped up in his arms back in our room, just discussing all the meaningless things the world had to offer. There was a hole in my chest every time I tho
I couldn’t believe how good I felt. My body felt like it was lit on fire, the good kind of fire and I felt energized from the inside. It was the best feeling in the world. Even with my eyes closed I could hear the birds singing outside, I could hear the pans and pots from Christie’s cooking downstairs and for the first time in a month I didn’t feel the overwhelming need to go and join her just so I could be relevant.I didn’t feel like I was failing my family by laying in bed and not making them breakfast. I turned around in bed and the space beside me was empty, when I reached to feel the sheets it was cold, a sign that Greyson had been out of bed for a while now. My hand reached something and when I held on to it, I realized it was a piece of paper. I opened it and when I found the messy scrawl that was Greyson’s handwriting within, a smile spread across my face. Hi Beautiful, Your idiotic brother forced me out of bed very early this morning, I wanted to let you know I was leavi