Chapter 4

Alpha Jason’s POV

Laurence was coming up for his first Birthday and we wanted it to be really special, I needed help in getting everything ready so after my wife’s death at the hands of Scarlett.

I had a lady called Steph she was from a smaller pack than ours, it was the Blood-moon Pack she was the Alpha’s second child. Alpha blood which is good for any future children she may have.

Steph came over to help now and again since my wife died and it was great to have another female to help around the house and look after Laurence.

But it soon came to light that she took a liking to me. I wish I could say the same, but I lost my wife nearly a year ago and I wasn’t ready. I’ve been told the first of everything like Christmas, Birthdays and Anniversaries are always the hardest and that it gets easier.

But for me, I was Alpha of the pack, a Dad, a Mum and goodness knows what else. Ever since Steph arrived she’s always had a massive smile on her face, whereas I give a slight smile and a nod of the head. She clearly had some sort of crush on me, it’s not the first woman to do that since my wife’s passing, a lot of the single females in the pack try their luck.

Every time I get close to her, I can hear her heart beating faster. She smells absolutely divine but I don’t want to move on so quickly and look like I’ve forgotten her. I miss her so much.

I invited Steph over for dinner and wanted to have “The Chat” with her about what has been happening and if she feels anything towards me, so at least we know where we stand. Dinner was 7pm and everything was looking amazing it was my favourite Lamb Casserole with Mashed Potatoes and Veg with a Glass of Red for the two of us.

Laurence was in his highchair sound asleep. He had a great day playing with his toys and the pack warriors children came over to play with him. He started to wake so one of the Maids Daisy, came to take him upstairs and put him in his Cot, she stayed with him the entire time until it was bedtime for me.

As we started our meal I said to Steph, “I know that You like me and with everything going on at the moment I don’t think it’s a good idea us being together, the timing doesn’t feel right to me”, I said.

I looked at her face and what started with a big smile on her face had now turned into a hurt one. I felt awful doing this to her she has been amazing with him, he likes her so much. I did agree to one thing though which she liked the idea of which was to move in here to make it easier for Laurence to be looked after.

But it wouldn’t be easier on me being close to her. I needed to put myself in a good position as Alpha and not let my guard down at any point with any Woman.

This was going to be hard to do with her being here 24/7 but at least I do get help besides the maids. She loves coming round to help out with him, she has done so so well in adapting to our routine and it is a blessing to see another female presence within the setting.

I often talk to my wife’s picture and have a little cry when know one looks or can see me whether it be before bed, in my office alone or when having a shower. I don’t want to feel like I’ve let her down and I’ve moved on quickly.

But my Beta has said to me “What would she want you to do?, mope around or find someone else especially for Laurence’s sake, I mean you don’t have to love her like you did with Sophia”.

He was right but was I ready or not?, I guess I will find out when the time is right. My wolf knows it is the right time but I’m not so sure.