Chapter 46:

As I gained control of my own body once more, I slowly pushed myself to sit up. I looked up at him, watching his reaction as I reached out, deliberately tracing over the carved lines of his chest and abs. The muscle tensed under my soft touch as he closed his eyes, tipping his head back like he was reveling in each little touch just like I had. When I reached his waistband, I hooked my fingers into it, causing those beautiful eyes to find mine once more. "You don't have to, Ari. I'm perfectly happy with this being just about you tonight." He told me in that low, husky tone, and I smiled at him. 

"I know that I don't have to, but I want to. I want to be with you, Xavier." I whispered back to him as I slowly pulled his pants down over his hips. He had made it easy for me, considering that he didn't have anything under his sleep pants. It was my turn to grin at him as I pushed them down his muscular thighs.

I made a show out of allowing my gaze to slowly slide down the miles of chiseled muscle before I fully caught sight of him, and I have to say that I was entirely correct in my earlier assessments. He really was huge... everywhere. He was long and thick, and I felt my cheeks heat as I took him in. 

My gaze found his once more, watching his reaction as I gently glided my hand over him before wrapping it around his length. He shuddered, taking a sharp breath before all but falling to his knees on the edge of the bed, bracing a hand beside my thigh as he leaned over me to press a desperate kiss to my lips as I slowly stroked over him.

It was empowering. The simple fact that just my touch could bring such a powerful man to his knees, just for me, had me gripping him a little tighter.  He pulsed in my hand as I slowly dragged it all the way back up to the tip. He groaned, panting for a breath as his head dropped to my shoulder and his hips jerked as I swept my thumb over the tip. 

"If you keep going, you're going to drive me fucking mad, princess." He panted out, pressing a kiss to my neck with another low groan as I stroked over him once more. He cursed under his breath, and before I knew what was happening, he had grabbed me, moving us to where I was straddling his lap while he was leaning back against the headboard. 

I was honestly confused for a moment, looking over our position before looking up at him for guidance. He just gave me a soft smile as his arm wrapped around my waist, pulling me up against his chest, and we both shuddered at the pleasure of my heated core gliding over his hard length. He took a breath as his hand cupped my cheek, forcing my gaze to his once more. "You're in control here, Ari. Take whatever you want, princess. I don't care how far this goes or doesn't go, because anything you do will be perfect." He whispered to me, and I took a breath. The realization hit me once more as it settled over me. He was once more giving me a choice, but more so, he was giving me absolute control over this situation, letting me make the decision if this was going to go any further or not, along with exactly how far it went. 

I kissed him, hard, as I tried to pour every ounce of my appreciation into it before slowly grinding down against his length. He hummed his approval against my lips as I moaned into the kiss at the feeling of him gliding over that sensitive spot. As I got to the tip, it pressed against my entrance, and I kissed him a little harder. I dug my fingertips into his shoulders as I slowly eased down onto him, just a little at first. I could feel him stretching me, but there was no searing pain of ripped flesh or anything of the sort, just the smooth glide of him slowly stretching me to accommodate him. His fingers dug into my hips as he hissed out a breath, and I grinned. I was doing this to him. I was giving him just as much pleasure as he had just given me. 

He helped me then, gently coaxing me to slowly rock my hips up before taking just a little more of him. Slowly, I took more and more of him, and before I knew it, I had settled down, all the way against his hips as I gasped at the bolt of pleasure that shot through my system at the feeling of having him buried so deep inside of me. 

Good God, he was so big. So deep inside of me, and it was so damn perfect. He was panting, his jaw clenched, hands locked around my waist, but honestly, he had never looked so damn gorgeous. 

"So fucking perfect." He ground out before removing one hand to cup my cheek, pulling me in for another long, sweet kiss. The move caused him to shift slightly inside of me, and I gasped at the shock of pleasure that shot through my system, causing my thighs to tremble with the force of it. 

The pleasure spurred me into action as I slowly lifted off him just a couple of inches before easing back down, moaning as he groaned against my lips. His grip tightened once more around my hips as he helped me slowly work my hips up and down his length in a slow rhythm that ground that sensitive bundle of nerves against him every single time I took him fully back inside of me.

"Xavier, please." I managed to pant out between breaths and heated kisses. I needed more, and I could feel that he was holding himself steady, making sure I was okay, but I needed him to move. 

That little plea seemed to snap his control, and he drove up into me as he used his hands on my hips to drive me down onto him at the same time, and I cried out at the pure pleasure of the move. "Yes! Please." I couldn't help but to cry out over and over again as he drove into me. 

We met thrust for thrust in a frenzy of skin meeting skin, and kisses that were quickly becoming more feral by the second, but I was damn well loving every single second of it. The air around us charged with his energy, sparking off my skin and sending little jolts of even more pleasure coursing through my veins with every single touch, every kiss held a tingling jolt of energy that had me gasping and bucking against him as my pleasure built more and more. This time, though, it didn't feel like the slow climb of the first time. No, this felt more like I was playing with a bomb that was seconds away from detonating. 

My nails dug into his shoulders as he bit down on that spot right under my ear, and his power sparked through me, spiking off every single pleasure point in my body as I damn well detonated. I cried out his name like a lifeline as wave after wave of pure, white-hot pleasure coursed through my system, unending as it threatened to wash me away right along with it. 

He ground out a curse as I felt him bury himself as deep as he could inside of me, as I felt him lose himself in me. I felt him pulsing deep inside of me just as the waves started slowly easing, and I trembled in his arms. Pulling back from my neck, he let out a breath as he leaned back against the headboard, and I all but collapsed against his chest as his arms wrapped around me, gently cradling me there against him. I was so exhausted from the day that I couldn't even help it, as my eyelids seemed to close on their own as I curled into his hold, completely uncaring that he was still inside of me. There wasn't a single doubt in my mind; I knew he had me, that he would take care of me.