Chapter 45:

My mind started to spiral back to what had happened before with Jaxon, the second Xavier pinned me fully to the wall. I couldn't help it; my breathing hitched, but that was when he pressed soft, sweet kisses to my collarbone, and I took a full, deep breath. Xavier's scent filled my lungs, instantly calming my racing thoughts. That warm, smoky, spiced scent felt far more like a warm, comforting blanket as it wrapped around my whole being, instantly soothing my nerves, and allowing me to stay in the moment as I was instantly brought back to exactly where I was and who had me. I was safe here. 

I gasped as his hands traced back down my sides to grip my ass as he pulled me away from the wall, and walked us over to the bed before carefully laying me down across it. Pressing another kiss to my collarbone, he started slowly, methodically trailing a path lower. Almost torturously slow as he moved down to my chest. 

My breath caught in my throat as his hot tongue flicked over one nipple, and his hand once more started cupping and massaging the other. My back arched off the bed when his hot mouth closed over my nipple, sucking against it as I let out a needy sound that I didn't even know I could make, but I couldn't control it with just how good it felt to have his mouth on me. My hands found their way into his hair, threading through it as I gripped the longer strands to hold him there against me. 

God, I hadn't even known it was possible for something to feel so damn good, but whatever he was doing with his mouth was absolute heaven. The slow glide of his hand as he traced over my stomach caught my attention as he slowly moved lower, inch by slow inch. He switched his attention to my other breast, treating it with the same attention as the first as his hand reached the waistband of my underwear, and I couldn't help but to tense slightly. 

He instantly paused. I felt him hold everything steady for me as he sensed my unease before he gently tugged at my nipple with his teeth. I gasped and squirmed under him as it shot a bolt of pleasure running down my spine, but that caused his hand to slip down further as he licked over the spot, soothing the slight ache his teeth left. I could feel him holding himself back as he took it extremely slow for me, waiting until I had relaxed before he moved, and stopping the second I tensed once more, all while absolutely lavishing me with attention. 

Once I had finally relaxed, his hand shifted down just a little further, and his finger tip gently rubbed over a spot that had my back bowing off the bed as I gasped for breath. "That's it. That's my good girl." He whispered against my skin, causing a shiver to run down my spine as his hand shifted down just a little further as he slowly stroked over that spot. I whimpered at the white-hot pleasure that shot through my veins at just the simple soft touch. Nothing had ever felt this good before. I honestly had no idea what he was doing, but I really didn't care either as long as he didn't stop. "So sensitive. So damn sweet. So fucking perfect." He praised before once more taking my nipple into his mouth as his fingers slipped under the thin material of my underwear. He groaned as his fingers trailed through my soaked core before slowly stroking over that spot once more. I couldn't help it as I writhed under him, panting my pleasure and all but forcing him to pin me to the bed with his body as I bucked against his hand. 

The pleasure that coursed through my whole being from his touch was more intense than anything I've ever felt before. It felt like every single stroke of his hand, his tongue was pushing me closer and closer to a sheer cliff, and I knew that if I happened to tumble off that cliff, I wouldn't ever be the same again. Maybe that wouldn't be such a bad thing.

Slowly, he pushed my underwear aside entirely to where his whole hand cupped my sex as his thumb still rubbed those slow, maddening circles against that spot. His finger slipped down to my entrance, and he cursed under his breath as he started slowly trailing kisses over my stomach. I tensed once more as his finger teased my entrance, but those bright eyes found mine. 

"Relax for me, princess. Trust me. I'd never hurt you." He whispered to me, and I took a breath as I allowed my body to follow his words, slowly relaxing once more. Those eyes stayed on mine as his finger slowly eased into me, no pain, nothing but the slow, easy glide of him entering me. "That's it. Fuck, sweet girl, you're so wet for me. So fucking perfect, princess." He all but growled the statement against my hip as his finger started to slowly work inside of me. Easily gliding in and out in a slow, easy rhythm that had my hips following him for more as my fists balled into the sheets on either side of me. 

He kissed over my hip bone before taking hold of my underwear with his teeth, pulling his hand away from me in the process of pulling them down off me, and I couldn't help the whimper of loss that fell from my lips. God, I wanted to find that edge and damn well throw myself over it at this point. He just chuckled at me, low and sinfully sexy as he pulled my underwear down my thighs before letting go and discarding them somewhere across the room. 

"Don't worry, princess. I'll make it up to you." He whispered in that low husky tone as he pressed a kiss to the inside of my thigh. He slowly trailed heated kisses further up with the occasional nip to my sensitive skin, causing me to moan and jump as he made his way up to the crook of my thigh before hooking it over his shoulder and moving to the other one. This time, when he made his way up to the crook of my other thigh, he nipped at it, making me gasp as I jumped at the sudden change from soft and sweet to slightly rough, but fuck if it wasn't perfect, especially as his tongue trailed over the spot, instantly soothing the slight ache. He didn't stop there, though, no, he kissed over my heated core, slowly gliding his hands up over my thighs before his tongue seared a path from my entrance all the way to that sensitive bud. 

"Xavier!" I called out his name like a prayer as he sucked against that spot, lashing it with his tongue as I bucked against him. I felt that sexy grin against me before he pressed a soft kiss against me and pulled back just enough to speak. 

"Yes, princess?" He asked, but that sinful grin never left his lips as he let them brush over me with each word. I whimpered, and his tongue lashed out once more as I white-knuckled the sheets under me. 

"P... please, Xavier." I managed to get out on a whimper, and he chuckled against me, vibrating that spot as his lips sealed around me for just one blissful moment.

"Please, what, Ari?" 

"D... don't... s... stop." I managed to stammer out, and his grin widened to something purely predatory before he absolutely devoured me like I was the best thing he had ever tasted. I was all but screaming my pleasure when I felt his finger slowly enter me once more, starting another rhythm that had me chasing him for every single stroke. He sucked against that spot as my whole body shook, and he introduced another finger inside of me, slowly stretching me in easy, gentle strokes before he slowly got more and more forceful. Curling his fingers inside of me and hitting a spot that had my whole body arching off the bed as his tongue lashed over that sweet bud. 

I was panting and bucking against him with every single thrust of his hand and lash of his tongue as the pleasure of every sensation built to a point that was almost too much before I fell over that ledge. I could have sworn I saw stars as my back bowed off the bed, crying out as my whole body trembled. He slowed, gently easing me down from that sweet release as he slowly massaged up and down my thighs, gently laving that spot with long, lazy strokes as he made sure I rode out every single wave of pleasure before my whole body fell limp against the bed.

If that was what this is supposed to feel like, then I could finally see why other women were addicted to it.  Slowly, he stood from where he had been kneeling between my thighs, and I quickly made up my mind. I wanted to try with him. Even if I was scared, if he could do that, then maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Hell, what if that's what it'll be like every time with him? I would happily take more of that in my life.