RHETT.Blood. There was too much of it. The only thing worse than the sight of it was how still she was in my arms, too damn quiet and for the first time in my life I felt fear grip me.It wasn’t the kind that made my hands shake or my vision blur, it was different. Sharper that it clawed at the edges of my mind, pressing against my ribs like a deficiency demanding to be acknowledged. I shoved it down and buried it beneath logic, control, anything that would make it disappear.Fear was useless. Fear didn’t fix a damn thing.People had gathered around, each of them watching as I tightened my hold on her limp body and moved fast. Her body was a dead weight pressing onto my chest, her blood soaking into my shirt—warm, sticky, and irrelevant.I hated it.I shoved the door to my car open with my foot and laid her at the back seat of my car.I didn’t bother to check for a pulse. What good would it do? If she was dying, she would either survive the ride or she wouldn’t.“You always were a d
NICOLE. The first thing my senses could pick up on was the sterile smell of antiseptic along with the smell of cherry? Whoever had thought these two would go well together was clearly mistaken. Was the combination of both supposed to aid in patients recovering and comfort them? Definitely not. It felt like I was about to choke to death from the scratchy smell of insecticide. I tried to move, but my body felt heavy then a constant beeping sound came next. What’s with the bad smell and noise? I groaned as my eyes fluttered open, blinking against the stark fluorescent lights overhead . Hospitals were never designed for comfort, but this was the height of it. I looked around and wondered who brought me here. The door to my ward opened and my mom stepped in, rushing to my bed when she noticed I was awake. Her eyes were filled with concern, her brows drawn together in worry as she held my hand in hers and began weeping “Oh my dear child” “Mum,”I groaned “I am fine,
NICOLE. Men. They were the worst kind of animals and my husband happened to be a monster. The kind that’s supposed to be caged with a warning written in bold letters. Do you think it is strange that I was only filled with disgust right now? The hurt I felt long forgotten as I stared at the man standing in front of me. I felt like a thousand spiders were crawling around my body, their fangs kissing me. “Marcus” Even rolling his name around my mouth tasted like a bile of vomit. “Have some respect for God at least if you have no human decency.” He stared back at me like I had two heads. The shock of my reaction to his words? I should be throwing up, crying and screaming but that would be a waste for a man like Marcus. He had no feelings and I was done doing so too, he didn’t deserve an ounce of my emotions. Raising my hand, I began clapping, “Congratulations on your wedding” turning to the seated people, I ordered, “Clap, clap, they deserve a round of applause” “Wha
NICOLE. The collective gasp from the congregation echoed off the walls and I looked around trying to get a pick of their expressions. I could almost hear them distinctively calling Marcus an asshole but that wasn’t what I needed to hear. I needed to feel the ache in my chest lessen, anything to soothe the damaged heart they had left behind. “And the bride standing on that altar is my so-called best friend,” I announced again. “What?” The priest was the first to speak before another series of whispers broke around. My throat was getting dry and across from where I stood I could remember the way Marcus once looked at me. Everything was a lie, the whole look of love, the vows he had said on our wedding day like he wanted me forever. What a lie! “We are not married, Nicole” He looked at me, while shaking his head “Not anymore” The church was silent and it was taunting me. “What?” I stared at him with disbelief. Were we lying now? I moved closer to the altar, sa
NICOLE. God, I was late. My best friend is getting married and I am going to be her chief bridesmaid. The constant ringing of my phone prompted me to pull over at the side of the road. It was probably Brittney calling me to ask why I was running late to her wedding. My morning had started out in a weird way and that had nothing to do with waking up to an empty bed space, I was used to that. But it had everything to do with my pregnancy results. I was pregnant. I should be more joyous than this, probably excited to tell my absent husband about it but there was this little feeling nagging at me at the back of my mind like he was occupied with something. But Marcus wouldn’t cheat, he loves me too much for that. He makes me feel like the prettiest woman in the world and that was enough to make me happy. I reached for my phone and turned off my engine. I was probably parked horizontally but Brittney was panicking and I needed to assure her that I was a few feet away from her