Chapter 4: He Hurts Me

Today my so-called pack unintentionally sent me to my grave. 

I know Josh sent me to a meeting without predicting the consequences but it feels like I am thrown into hell instead of living a dream. This is beyond my nightmare.

Coming out of my thoughts I stood there like an idiot, watching mate smile at his chosen mate. He kisses her on the cheek and then moves his down to touch her stomach. 

Why does it feel too painful to watch their loving moments?

Looking up at the sky, I could see darkness with no rays of sunshine and rainbows.

'Oh, how wonderful life is!'

Eric doesn't know that I was waiting for him and that I long for him to come into my life. I have fallen asleep every night with thoughts of him in my head. How life will turn out if he were there with me.

When I felt the pain years ago which almost cost my life I thought he died. I was so hurt and devastated by losing him. However, here he is. Right in front of me with his chosen mate.

"Hello, I'm Claire Montez-Gibson. Eric's mate," she happily introduces herself.

'I didn't know the thing can talk.' I try to control myself and I wanted to laugh. 

I am laughing even though it's rude to do that in front of a Luna and Alpha but what can I do.

"Oh, God!" I exclaimed, wiping away my tears. After calming myself down I say, "sorry it's just that you look adorable together." 

That was a lie. 

'Adorable my ass' I thought to myself.

Aberdeen and the others smile at my comment, not knowing that I am dying inside. 

"Shall we go in and start our meeting?" Alpha Eric says giving us a warm smile.

There is no way I am going to call him Eric again. After all, I don't have a Mate anymore.

'He's not rejecting us,' Eliz groaned in my head.

I wanted to retort back at her but now is not the right time as the idea of my mate mating someone else is still shocking to me. 

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They discussed our pack's treaty while I just sit there with my mind somewhere far away and my fingers fiddling on my lap. I was not focusing on the meeting's agenda or any matter they are discussing. 

'This can't be real Eliz,' I said to my wolf but she remain silent.

"Is there something you want to say, Elle?"

A voice snaps me back to the meeting. I turn to see all eyes on me. I have forgotten that they could feel my anxiety as our mind links are open to others. 

However, it doesn't mean that they can hear my inner turmoil, thoughts, and words I am exchanging with Eliz. 

The practice is for meetings only. Unless you mated to your mate, the links will then be open with nothing to hide from one another.

"Well?" Alpha fakes a smile as he asks me.

An idea pops into my head and without a filter, I blurted, "I think I need to go to the restroom."

It is embarrassing to sound like a kid who needs permission to go to the bathroom but I just need to be out of there for a while.

Standing up I excuse myself and went out of the door. I walk through the hallway, and the place was big. 

My eyes searched for someone to point me in the bathroom's direction. However, there wasn't any living soul roaming around the house. 

I hear a door shut and my nostrils took in the scent of my mate. His tall figure came into view. I could see his eyes turning from dark brown to golden.

'Zhipa, his wolf is trying to take control,' chanted Eliz as she howls with joy wanting to take control but I tried to hold her back.

After struggling for control in seconds, our human sides won over our wolves, giving us full control. His expression is hard as he continues to walk. He grabs my arm before he drags me to an empty room.

"We can't be together." It's the first thing he said when he pushes me on the couch without care. I almost twisted my wrist.

Perfect. No sorry at all. What an ass!

"You and I can never happen," he said while pointing his fingers between the two of us.

"I love Claire," he confesses. "Therefore, I Eric Gibson reject you Elle" he looks at me dumbfounded

"Last name?" he demands.

I felt a pang in my heart while Eliz howled in pain. This is what I was most afraid of "rejection." Eliz would never walk past it. 

I can manage this blow. After all, I've been through much more hell than this. So, I did what I thought was right for both of us.

"Langford," I sadly told him.

He looks at me without envy or sympathy before he continues with his rejection.

"Langford as my mate," he finishes.

 There was no pain unless I reject him back. I stood up from the couch and face him with a brave smile.

"Good," I said before walking out of there like I didn't care. Even though my shoulders feel heavy but I held my head high. 

Once I reached outside of the house I run into the woods with tears falling from my eyes.

It hurts to be unwanted and to be unloved by your chosen one.