It’s been centuries since I got this dressed up, yet here I am dressing for the same reason I did then.
Today is the autumnal equinox, one of the two times of the year when the sun is exactly above the equator making day and night equal in length. The other time this occurs is called the vernal equinox. To celebrate, supernaturals gather among their kind in hopes of finding their soulmate. However, for thousands of years during the autumnal equinox, the delegation has hosted the Autumnal Ball, allowing supernaturals from all corners of the globe to come together at the Kartheca to try to find their animai among other species. The last time I attended was in the 1500s and that was only for the novelty of it. This time is different.
While everyone will be attending hoping to find their animais, I’ve already found mine; he just doesn’t want anything to do with me. This would have been another year I avoided this event but for some unknown reason, me and my brother were personally requested by the delegation to make an appearance. We’re used to them reaching out regarding eyti matters and we receive the ball invitations every year out of courtesy, but we’ve never had a face-to-face request before. I wanted to say no, but Ayawamat insisted we attend. I don’t know why he’s eager all of a sudden. He thinks being restricted to one soulmate for the rest of your life is cruel and unusual torture. I try not to overanalyse the bizarre inner workings of my brother’s mind; it’ll only give me a headache.
I walk over to the dresser, pick up a pair of gold, hollow, leaf earrings with turquoise and rhinestone tassels, and hook them in my ears as I walk back to the mirror and examine myself. I’ve paired the earrings with a beautiful squash blossom necklace in gold vermeil with turquoise cabochons that meet at a Naja – or inverted moon. It’s an absolutely beautiful piece made by a Navajo artist named Leon F. Kirlie. Seeing as how Jartre created my brother and me in the image of the native people of this land and many of their stories were inspired by us, I feel very connected to the native people in a spiritual way and love to honour them whenever I can.
For tonight’s festivities, I’m wearing a gorgeous turquoise, cream and gold, strapless mermaid dress with a sweetheart neckline featuring an eye-catching tribal pattern on the fabric. The shoes are six-inch turquoise stilettoes with gold pointed tips and a delicate glittering gold metal woven around the leather. I’ve pulled my hair back into a high pony that splits into two braids that hang down over my shoulders. The final piece of the ensemble is my bracelet. I’ve had this bracelet for thousands of years and never take it off. It’s a large teardrop opal encased in silver metalwork that wraps around and up my wrist to resemble a feather. While I’m immune to the eyti, I don’t like to use my abilities on them unless I absolutely have to. This allows me to incapacitate them without killing them, which eases my conscience.
Overall, this is the most effort I have put into my appearance in a long time, but I think I’ve managed to pull it off. No make up though. I’ve personally never enjoyed it. It makes me feel like I’m wearing a mask, and my skin feels as though it’s suffocating.
As I continue to examine myself in the mirror, I hear a light tap at my door.
“Come in,” I call out, grasping the bust of my dress and tugging it up a fraction.
From the mirror I watch Ayawamat enter my room, his eyes widening as he spots me.
“Wow…Orenda…you look stunning,” he breathes out.
I smile at his reflection, “You look quite dashing yourself.”
Ever the standout, my brother is dressed in a matching suit jacket and pants with a green, pink, white and blue gradient over a green turtleneck that perfectly matches his rainbow leather pointed-toe dress shoes. Sometimes I think my brother should have been made into a peacock instead of a raitruum.
“Did you match your attire to your eyes?” I inquire.
“That I did,” he grins, “And I look good, don’t I?”
“Handsome from head to toe,” I admit as I turn to face him, “Are you ready to go?”
“Not just yet, I was hoping you could do my hair.”
I smile softly, “Would be my pleasure.”
I walk over and sit on the edge of the bed, patting the spot in front of me. Ayawamat walks over and happily sits beside me, turning his back to me and handing me his brush.
“How would you like it?”
“I think I’d like two simple braids, nothing as elaborate as what you’ve got going on.”
“Like you could even pull it off,” I scoff as I gently brush through his hair, then begin working on his braids. “Aya?”
“Hmm?”
“Why are you so eager to go to this thing? You’re not hoping to meet your animai are you?” I tease.
“For that, you can wash your mouth out with soap,” he says appalled.
I chuckle, “Okay, if it’s not that, then what?”
“I’ve been thinking about that battle the other month.”
“Not to be confused with all those other battles,” I tease further.
He throws me a dirty look. I bite my lips together to keep from laughing and let him continue.
“We’ve been alive a very long time and in all that time I’ve never seen supernaturals from all walks of life gather together and fight as one like that. The fact that we were kept out for the worst of it made me feel like we were…being excluded.”
“You wanted to fight?”
“I wanted to feel like we were needed; like it wasn’t just us looking in as always. We’re called on when needed, but even that is rare. So many people still don’t even know we exist,” he says in frustration. "We're older than the Delegation, yet they are respected, and we are myths."
I sigh, understanding how he feels. I can’t count how many times I’ve swooped in to save someone’s life only to hear the deflating words that they have no idea what a raitruum is. Being the only two of our kind has its many downfalls and that is one of them.
“I just thought maybe attending the Autumnal Ball would give us a chance to be seen by the supernatural community.”
“I understand where you’re coming from and am completely behind this. But just for the record, if you had wanted to find your animai, I’d have supported that too,” I say sweetly.
“Never going to happen. Besides, why are you so sure Zarseti would even give me one? You don’t see all her daughters paired up.”
“Because I believe if there was someone for me, there’s someone for you.” I place his braids over his shoulders and line them up on his chest. “All done.”
He gets up and examines my handiwork in the mirror, gracing me with a bright smile, “Perfect as always. Now we can go.” He holds out his hand to help me up which I eagerly take.
As we proceed down the stairs, I notice my brother eyeing my dress.
“What are you looking at?”
“Nothing. Just admiring how stunning the dress is. Where did you get it?”
“Tituba made it for me,” I say proudly.
He blinks in surprise, “You didn’t wish for it, did you?”
“Gods no!” I gasp, “I would never do something so cruel. Just because she has chosen to use her abilities as a visum to help others as penance for her past indiscretions, does not mean I would ever take advantage of her. When I say she made the dress, I mean she made it with her own two hands. She’s quite the designer.”
“How am I only just finding out about this? And how does a visum who lives in the mountains manage to manufacture a gown like that anyway?” he asks suspiciously.
I roll my eyes, “We turn into birds and fly, yet a visum in the mountains sewing dresses is the thing you find impossible to believe.”
“What can I say, I’m a unique character. Now, speaking of flying…”
Agreeing to disagree is just a lazy way to end a conflict, but without the benefit of a resolution. I may as well have said I’d rather be right than find a compromise. Have I always been this stubborn, or does Azadou just bring it out in me? Once Aya and I sort things out I will ask him.“You’re right…I’m sorry,” I breathe out, feeling contrite.“You…really?” he mumbles, looking caught off guard.I nod slowly. “I tried to kill the conversation instead of finding a compromise or explaining my feelings. I’m sorry,” I humbly apologise.He quirks his eyebrow suspiciously. “Just like that?”“You explained why you said what you said, and your explanation made me realise that I was wrong, so I’m apologising,” I articulate for him.“I can’t believe Jartre was right…” he whispers incredulously to himself, looking off in thought.“Right about what?” I ask curiously.He shakes his head, turning his attention back to me. “Nothing. Forget about it. I’d like you to explain why you’re taking on blam
His confession has my mind spinning and my stomach twisted in knots. Even without a bond between us, my essram still aches painfully to hear him confirm what I suspected. To hear him confess that he wanted to hurt me…“Zarseti finally explained it, and maybe it was because I was so broken, but I was finally able to take in what she had to say…which only made the suffering worse,” he admits glumly, his eyes filled with regret, pain and sorrow. “I spent every minute of every day reliving everything I had done to you and hating myself more with each recollection. You showed me nothing but kindness time and time again, and I repaid you with derision and maltreatment. The day we first met, you took a stand against the Gods and your own maker for me,” he recalls with awe. “Despite everything, you stood there defending and shielding me…no one had ever done that for me before,” he utters desolately.My heart clenches to see him so vulnerable, sitting next to me, stripping himself bare for the
I hear a chair scraping against the wooden floor and glance to my right, seeing Azadou sliding a chair towards the bed and taking a seat.“Still too kind for your own good,” he muses, shaking his head.“What?” I choke in confusion, my throat constricted by the tears I continue to shed.“He hurt your feelings, yet you feel bad for hurting his, even though you were just expressing how you felt about a trauma you endured,” he observes, his brows furrowed in bafflement.“So because I’m hurting, I should want to hurt him?” I ask, affronted by the notion.“I didn’t say that,” he carefully points out. He sighs and rests his elbows on his knees as he appears to gather his thoughts before eventually speaking again. “I have never claimed to be moral or virtuous, but I know what those things are. From what I’ve witnessed since my return, very few people care whether or not they hurt someone. I had noticed the nuances of malice but hadn’t truly appreciated them until now.”“What does that have to
“Thousands of years of protecting the people of this Earth, but I couldn’t even protect myself,” I sigh despondently. “Some guardian I am,” I snort.Aya furiously shakes his head, squeezing my hand as his arm around my shoulders holds me tighter. “Orenda, you survived. So many people would have given up and taken the easy way out, but you didn’t. You stayed strong and survived, and because of that, you’re here right now. I’m so proud of you for not giving up,” he commends, kissing my temple tenderly.I take an uneasy breath and I rub soothing circles against my belly. He’s praising me for not giving up when the truth is I did. It feels like he’s applauding a fraud.“You don’t agree,” Azadou’s deep voice – like rumbling thunder – observes, making my head shoot up.I still can’t comprehend that Azadou helped to save me or that he’s still here. It’s been two days since they brought me home, and he still hasn’t left. Even more shocking is that Aya hasn’t attempted to kick him out once, h
I step out into the hallway and wait for Jartre to join me. He steps out, closes the door behind him and looks at me with that same paternal look he gave Orenda, making me suppress a sneer.“If you’re about to lecture me, I don’t have the energy for it,” I forewarn.He responds with a brief, half-hearted smile as he shakes his head. “Orenda is alive right now because of you, if anything, I want to thank you.”I raise an incredulous brow. “Thank me? She nearly died because of me,” I remind him. How fucking stupid is he?“So…you don’t want me to lecture you, but you don’t want me to thank you either,” he ventures. “Are you trying to put me in a precarious position or are your emotions in that great a conflict with one another?” he gages thoughtfully.My nostrils flare and my mouth sets into a hard line. “What the fuck do you want me to say?”Jartre takes a deep breath and scrubs his hands down his face. “Azadou…” he begins. “I’ve been where you are. Not exactly the same,” he clarifies b
Appearing in Orenda’s bedroom with Ayawamat, I lay her on the bed with cautious movements, listening for the faintest sound of pain or distress, but still she remains silent. Now that I have an unobstructed view of her face I see the swollen bruise forming on her right cheek. My mind races, painting vivid and nightmarish pictures of what Orenda endured for the past month to have caused her to be in the state she’s in now. I step back and let Ayawamat tend to her but continue to allow the energy of my essram to radiate around me. I can’t tell if it’s helping Orenda, but I know it’s at least helping the baby. There was a sense of desperation coming from it that has now subsided somewhat. It wasn’t like a thought or an emotion but more of a primal survival instinct.I watch, feeling helpless as Ayawamat kneels on the floor, assessing Orenda and covering her with blankets with a focused look ingrained on his face. I’m unsure of what to say or do. I feel compelled to stay but I also feel l
Something forceful shakes my body, pulling me from my slumber and sending shockwaves of pain through every nerve in my body.“You are not ruining everything I have worked so hard on,” I hear Invidia’s voice angrily hiss close to my ear.I struggle to open my eyes, only managing to catch glimpses of her through blurry slits. I see the dreaded syringe in her hand and begin to scream internally, pleading with my body to do something, anything. My vision repeatedly fades between darkness and Invidia’s small frame hovering over me as I struggle to keep my eyes open even a fraction. I can feel the life leaving my body bit by bit like water going down a drain. I want to scream, I want to cry, but I don’t even have the energy to produce tears anymore.The despair strangles me like a noose around my neck as I watch Invidia lift my shirt, ready to jam another needle inside me. Her eyes turn obsidian, her golden pupils glinting at me with disgust when suddenly a soft lilac-blue stone hanging aro
“Wh…what do you mean you can’t grant me a wish?!” Ayawamat stammers in confusion.Tituba sighs sympathetically. “Don’t you remember? You accidentally triggered a wish two centuries ago and I had no choice but to grant it.”Ayawamat’s face scrunches up as he thinks hard, followed by a look of realisation that confirms Tituba’s words to be the truth.“Fuck!” he shouts, clutching his head. “You’re right. I remember Orenda and I came to spend time with you; we were drinking, and I stupidly tripped and fell right into you,” he sighs lamentably.She nods solemnly. “I’m sorry, Aya. I really do want to help you, but you know I can only grant one wish per person,” she gently clarifies.“Then grant me the wish,” I instruct, walking over to them.Their heads snap to me as they both look taken aback.“I’ve never granted the wish of a God before…” she muses warily. “But if it will help find Orenda, I am more than willing to try,” she declares confidently, extending her hand to me.As I reach for he
With Ayawamat at my side, we appear on a cliffside high atop a mountain, standing at the entrance of some cave. The cliffside has a scenic view of the surrounding forest; a sea of lush colour that stretches on for miles until it reaches the ocean on the horizon.Orenda would love this view.I’m startled by the sudden thought that infiltrated my mind. Why did I just think that? How the fuck would I know what Orenda loves? I don’t know her any more than I know myself, and I’ve come to realise I am still a stranger to myself. I shake away the unruly thought and focus back on the cave, becoming aware of the magic exuding from within.“How exactly can this cave help find your sister?” I question sceptically.Ayawamat rolls his eyes and steps inside. I heave a sigh and follow in behind him. He raises his hand in the air and summons an electric charge to his hand, using its energy as a light source to guide his path.“This cave is home to a visum named Tituba. She has lived here in isolation